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Comment by Dianne M. on March 31, 2015 at 8:10pm

Tildyc I could have written your post.....we were so happy and had lived a simple life so now we could travel and do things we talked about...I just cant believe he is not here where he is supposed to be. I look around at some of his unfinished projects and have no clue what to do with it or so much of his other stuff....how am I supposed to do all this alone??

Comment by Tildyc on March 31, 2015 at 8:04pm

I just can't figure this out. My life was so happy and full. I was so very content. We didn't require a lot- Mark and I. Just the basics and each other equaled happiness. Whatever Life threw at us we could get through it together. But there's the problem – now he's gone. Every day I come thru the door and a small sad part of me always looks for him. Every single time. Then I sit in my chair and wonder how somebody could be so alive and right here and present and then- within moments they were gone from me forever. A walking breathing loving and amazing human being who was such a huge an important part of me..... Just doesn't exist anymore? How could that be? It feels like there's just got to be some sort of mistake. A mixup.... Just a big misunderstanding and he's going to be home in a minute. I realize that's not the case but that's not what it feels like.

Coming up on two months and it still impossible for me to comprehend what the future is supposed to look like without him?

Comment by George H on March 31, 2015 at 7:51pm

I'm sitting here and realize I have been with Mary since I was 29 years old 37 years I obviously didn't know squat when we got together I was in the music business in the recording business so you know how much


I cared about responsibility but I learned through the years and now I haven't the slightest idea what to do with my life or how to make it another day he was everything to me and now I have nothing but emptiness and darkness not sure what to do about all this counseling seems to be ok for the hour that we do it then I'm right back in this mess agamhow

Comment by Dianne M. on March 31, 2015 at 7:43pm

My husband died so suddenly i didnt even get to say goodbye...I will always regret that day and all the what ifs and why's....The grief group was good tonight but it puts me in a funk mentally. I think of all the things we had planned and wanted to do and now I am here alone. I too have things I can do but things I wont do alone. Staying busy and trying to not become a hermit. I signed up for a class at the local police station that should be really interesting and nothing hubby would have wanted to do. I am slowly going places alone that we went together but it is not easy. But I have to buy groceries and do errands and since we went everywhere together I cant avoid it...

Just so darn hard and sad...

Comment by Donna M Dowling-Hall on March 31, 2015 at 7:38pm

My husband said that he was not afraid to die, but he was disappointed that he would not be able to do all the things he was planning on doing.  I am not disappointed but pissed off that he cannot do all the things that he wanted to do.  There are some things I can do, but there is some that I cannot.

Comment by George H on March 31, 2015 at 6:46pm

today is one of those days or I just don't know how I'm going to make it through the night lots of pain lots of loneliness way too much everything I'm just missing Mary really bad today just oveoverwheow

Comment by Fran on March 31, 2015 at 6:41pm

Sounds like we're pretty much on our own. We will help each other cope and adjust.

Comment by George H on March 31, 2015 at 4:38pm

when I was young I was brought up Catholic I have strong believe in Heaven and Hell as the years went by and I got older I started to have my doubts and then I guess last 7 years with Mary being so sick I just totally turn my back on God if there really is a god I think they believe I have now is that your spirit or energy whatever goes on but just to like another plane and that this spirit lives but as far as the heaven and hell singing and the almighty power I just have no more belief in that but if you did have or do have faced you may want to search your soul in yourself because I would never try to put my beliefs on to anybody

Comment by Tildyc on March 31, 2015 at 4:22pm

Is always a really hard time a day for me. When I get home from work. And he's not here anymore. I cry a lot at this time. I mean I cry almost all the time it seems – in the morning when I wake up, on the way to work, on the way home from work, when I make dinner and when I go to bed. And also when I hear a particular song or have a memory creep up on me at work. It's consuming really. And it seems like I'm constantly searching and begging for an answer so that I can feel better.

I have a question for all you folks. Does anyone truly believe in the afterlife? Be it heaven or whatever else someone might believe? And how far do you go with that? Do you believe that your loved one's soul/spirit is right there with you in the same room? Or do you believe that you won't be with that person until you die? Or do you feel that there is no after life and that we just return to the earth from whence we came? I am struggling and hurting so deeply with the loss of my Mark- that I am really questioning a lot of what I used to believe. Or At least what I was taught when I was growing up- to believe.

Comment by Sandy Elaine Norris on March 31, 2015 at 11:26am

I am unable to work because taking care of my daddy is a full time job. I already feel better though because now I don't feel quite so lonely.

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