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Lost my husband the father of my kids and bestfriend . 6 Replies

  I lost my husband we were high school sweethearts we had plans and it was not suppose to be this way we had two kids together and I feel so lost and the pain i feel becuase of how much I miss him…Continue

Started by Nicole. Last reply by Martha Washburn Sep 22, 2022.

Loss of spouse… 3 Replies

For 40+ years we were together…married 39 years….We were to celebrate our 40th anniversary…Nobody who hasn’t been married, and lost a spouse could possibly understand….even though he was into many…Continue

Started by Susan B. Last reply by Connie Sep 1, 2022.

Today is the anniversary of my wedding day 2 Replies

I got married on May 1, 1992 and lost my husband on June 30, 2017. My wedding day was the happiest day of my life and if I had one wish, it would be to go back and live that day over. It has been…Continue

Started by Carol Klotz. Last reply by Carol Klotz May 3, 2020.

Lost my light in the darkness 2 Replies

I lost my wife on the 25 of March after returning from my Dads funeral. She is everything to me. No matter how bad it got, no matter how much my PTSD drug me down, She has been my light in the…Continue

Started by Shane Hughes. Last reply by Shane Hughes Apr 16, 2020.

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Comment by Tildyc on April 6, 2015 at 9:25pm
Hey George – I do the same thing. Cereal has become a staple for me. I don't cook anymore because actually that was Mark's world. He was the best cook I've ever met. And he was always in charge of cooking dinners and meals for us. I know how to cook but he was the master chef. And every time I go into the kitchen it just is too painful. All his pots and pans and utensils and spices are there that he was planning on using some day. To prepare meals for us. My God -life is so empty now.
Comment by Tildyc on April 6, 2015 at 8:37pm
How are we supposed to survive something like this? Life is so diminished... is it really worth living anymore?
Comment by Tildyc on April 6, 2015 at 8:11pm
Guess I'm having a bad day. But honestly – there hasn't been a single good day since February 4, 2015. I miss him so much. I just want him back here with me. I don't want to do this anymore. I don't want to do this without him. Life is meaningless with out him in it. This pain and loneliness is more than I can bare.
Comment by George H on April 6, 2015 at 8:03pm
Tried to cook tonight wasn't good just better to pick at cereal or what ever I can find
Comment by Sandy Elaine Norris on April 6, 2015 at 4:15pm

I'm really struggling today. Mark is gone. I have accepted that. My problem is living without him. I miss him and it feels like he took the biggest piece of my heart with him. I know that I can live without him, I just don't want to.

Comment by Tildyc on April 6, 2015 at 3:45pm
I walked in the door from work today and immediately started crying. I miss his smiling face and his greeting- "hey babe." I just don't understand how come I can't have Mark here with me? I still am having such a hard time getting myself to completely accept the fact that he is no longer here and he is dead. It just seems so irrational that this walking, talking, warm and loving person... This living human being.... This beautiful and wonderful soul who was the center of my world- and who loved me- has disappeared from our happy life? It just doesn't feel rational to my broken heart and my conscience that he is never going to be here with me again. Ever. It makes no sense. How could this possibly be? For God sakes- he was just here and we had all of our future plans together. WHERE IN GADS NAME HAS HE GONE TO???
Comment by Dianne M. on April 6, 2015 at 1:16pm

Woke up crying today. Sometimes things just hit me hard. I cant explain it. There is just NO reason for him to be dead and me alone. I see his face everywhere and hear his voice. His stuff is right where he left it expecting to come back to it. I am just a wreck today and lost. I am trying so hard to move forward but the pain is just so much to bear.
I am going to the gym because sitting around here really brings me down.

Comment by morgan on April 6, 2015 at 1:12pm

At two years two months after 35 years of marriage I have spent this time trying to live.  I've done everything to reconstruct life.  The pain has been intolerable.  I think I am giving up.  Instead of trying to live I am going to work towards preparing to die.  I still have many decisions to make to tie up my affairs but rather than keep trying to sustain them I am going to find ways to extricate myself from these obligations.  I am tired. So so tired.  This morning was just another day when I woke up and had hoped I wouldn't have.  I can't keep thinking I can live this pain.  To prove to everyone else I could do it I have tried and in many ways succeeded.  BUt I'm too tired.  I cant keep this up.  My death will come but I am no longer going to try to go forward and pretend like I am living.  I don't need a future.  I will live in the present and try to place "things" that I was left in the right hands.  That alone will take time but I no longer am going to pretend that I am doing it to live.  I will be doing it in order to not have to leave a mess for any of the people who would have to come in afterwards.   

Comment by George H on April 6, 2015 at 10:47am
L lost I was with mary for 37 years some days the loneliness is so hard to handle I do nothing but sit in my chair next to her emtyness hospital bed and w I sh every second I could have her back
Comment by Dianne M. on April 6, 2015 at 10:41am

Lost I totally understand how u feel. I am just plodding along and geting done what must be done.

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