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Lost my husband the father of my kids and bestfriend . 6 Replies

  I lost my husband we were high school sweethearts we had plans and it was not suppose to be this way we had two kids together and I feel so lost and the pain i feel becuase of how much I miss him…Continue

Started by Nicole. Last reply by Martha Washburn Sep 22, 2022.

Loss of spouse… 3 Replies

For 40+ years we were together…married 39 years….We were to celebrate our 40th anniversary…Nobody who hasn’t been married, and lost a spouse could possibly understand….even though he was into many…Continue

Started by Susan B. Last reply by Connie Sep 1, 2022.

Today is the anniversary of my wedding day 2 Replies

I got married on May 1, 1992 and lost my husband on June 30, 2017. My wedding day was the happiest day of my life and if I had one wish, it would be to go back and live that day over. It has been…Continue

Started by Carol Klotz. Last reply by Carol Klotz May 3, 2020.

Lost my light in the darkness 2 Replies

I lost my wife on the 25 of March after returning from my Dads funeral. She is everything to me. No matter how bad it got, no matter how much my PTSD drug me down, She has been my light in the…Continue

Started by Shane Hughes. Last reply by Shane Hughes Apr 16, 2020.

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Comment by Trina Mamoon on April 14, 2015 at 8:36pm

This existence without the love of my life is too terrible that sometimes it feels like I am suffering from an incurable disease. The heaviness and the agony are so constant and persistent that sometimes I think that I am seriously ill. The heaviness just envelops me day and night and there are only a few minutes, maybe a couple of hours of respite every once in a while that gives the impression if being ill. What a miserable way to pass one's days and nights. There is no light at the end of the tunnel either. For me the only thing I look forward to is the day of my liberation--the day I die.

Comment by George H on April 14, 2015 at 8:28pm
Going to try a grief group thursday night don't want to go out in public but many I'll try step daughter said she wanted to go I guess will see how that plays out
Comment by Dianne M. on April 14, 2015 at 8:20pm

Went to grief group tonight. I dont know if I feel better or worse after. 2 more meetings then no more for the summer. I guess we dont need grief support during the summer???? Well I do see a counselor so I will continue that I guess...so sad tonight. Miss him so much that my heart just aches...

Comment by Tildyc on April 14, 2015 at 4:17pm
Oh Sandy- this has got to be soo hard for you. I'm so very very sorry. Why does death have to be so painful. Why can't we have the answers? I mean Honestly- our souls/energy do you go somewhere. Why does it have to be such a secret? To know the answers might not only relieve the life crushing pain but also may connect us to the people we need in our life to stay whole. To actually, just maybe, be able to live a happy and productive life. Instead of be stuck in this world of confusion and hopelessness. Why can't we have these answers? Why?
Comment by Sandy Elaine Norris on April 14, 2015 at 1:50pm

Update- My daddy is no longer eating or drinking. Today I was able to put a popsicle in his mouth and he took down a little of that. Yesterday morning he was talking. Since early yesterday afternoon, nothing. Not much longer, I don't think.

Comment by George H on April 14, 2015 at 1:41pm
Tuesday I hate Tuesdays Mary'sbeen gone for 7 weeks the road ahead just seems darker the few people I talk to are fading into the mist it's lonely here were ever I am but I wouldn't want to be around the person I've become
Comment by Dianne M. on April 14, 2015 at 1:06pm

Went to the grocery store that we always went to and was OK until half way through shopping...I have been there before and was OK but dang it anyway today was different. I seem to be OK for a while then melt down. Has to finish transferring car stuff today and that didnt help either.

Why is he gone?? What the hell happened to him??? I get so mad and sad at the same time. Why am I alone yet again??  aaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh

Comment by Tildyc on April 14, 2015 at 9:42am
Lost- my birthday was in January. And my Mark bought for me this little watch thing called a fit bit. Oh how I wanted it so badly. We really couldn't afford it but he got it for me anyway. Oh man! I loved that thing! I wore it every day and night. And at the end of the day, usually over dinner, I would report to Mark all the information it recorded during my busy day. He was so sweet. He seemed amazed by all of the stuff it could tell us. He was really pleased that I was so happy with his gift to me.

And then on February 4 Mark died. And I have not been able to put that little fit bit back on. Just looking at it makes me start crying. And I know he would be so disappointed that he went and spent the money on something that I really really wanted and now I can't bring myself to use it. And though it's not something as big as a glass shop – kind of the same at that idea applies here. Things that I felt were interesting and important when he was still with me... Either cause me way too much pain or mean nothing to me now.

And eventually all the wonderful and caring folks usually go back to their own lives. Sometimes we might have 1 or 2 friends that stick around. i've been alone since the 2nd day Mark died.

But actually – I prefer to be alone now. I'm not very good company these days. Maybe it's not healthy but it's all that I can muster up at this point. I have togo to work. And sometimes I try to muster up the energy and courage to go out into the population- grocery store and pay bills etc.

My life is such an alien world now-compared to my life when I had my Mark in it. It's like living in an entirely different realm.
Comment by lost on April 14, 2015 at 8:41am
My honey passed on 3/05/15. I have not been alone one day since he passed. My family have been hovering..day and night. I think this weekend I may be alone. I Don't know what will happen when I am alone for the first time????? Now everyone keeps me occupied. I'm scared I just may lose it when that day comes. My husband built me a glass shop. He passed a few days after finishing it. He so thought I have talent and wanted me to pursue it...but, I can't walk from the house towards the shop which is on our property...
I get so sad. I just can't be in there yet. Or even have a reason why?? Why bother?? Why try?? He would be so sad if he knew something so hard he worked on..something he knew I loved made me so sad to even want to pursue without him. I need him by my side. I need him. I want to feel that so complete love again. I want my honey back telling me he was so glad we are married. He was always telling me he loved me and he was so glad we were together. 41yrs. I have so many memories. Sometimes they constantly are flowing all together and I feel like I am going crazy. Sometimes I just want them to slow down so I can experience each one....but they jam all together and I feel crazy.
Comment by George H on April 14, 2015 at 8:00am
Still here me and Leo Mary's dog no changes you all know the feeling right now I don't care if Rkensas exploded
 

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