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Lost my husband the father of my kids and bestfriend . 6 Replies

  I lost my husband we were high school sweethearts we had plans and it was not suppose to be this way we had two kids together and I feel so lost and the pain i feel becuase of how much I miss him…Continue

Started by Nicole. Last reply by Martha Washburn Sep 22, 2022.

Loss of spouse… 3 Replies

For 40+ years we were together…married 39 years….We were to celebrate our 40th anniversary…Nobody who hasn’t been married, and lost a spouse could possibly understand….even though he was into many…Continue

Started by Susan B. Last reply by Connie Sep 1, 2022.

Today is the anniversary of my wedding day 2 Replies

I got married on May 1, 1992 and lost my husband on June 30, 2017. My wedding day was the happiest day of my life and if I had one wish, it would be to go back and live that day over. It has been…Continue

Started by Carol Klotz. Last reply by Carol Klotz May 3, 2020.

Lost my light in the darkness 2 Replies

I lost my wife on the 25 of March after returning from my Dads funeral. She is everything to me. No matter how bad it got, no matter how much my PTSD drug me down, She has been my light in the…Continue

Started by Shane Hughes. Last reply by Shane Hughes Apr 16, 2020.

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Comment by Tildyc on April 1, 2015 at 9:36pm
Oh George – I'm thinking of you. And I find myself in that place often. We are all here if you need us.
Comment by Dianne M. on April 1, 2015 at 9:33pm

Nights are the worst for me. I can stay busy and run errands during the day but at night I can only stay gone for so long because of the dogs. So I sit here watching mindless TV and feeling lonely and overwhelmed too.

Comment by George H on April 1, 2015 at 9:30pm
Can't do much posting now losing the battle tonight loneliness to overwhelming
Comment by Tildyc on April 1, 2015 at 9:30pm
Watching a show on TV that brought me down memory lane. I remember the first year that I went commercial fishing with Mark. He owned a small troller and he needed a deck hand. Although I grew up in Alaska- I had never seen such amazing breathtaking beauty. He gave me a gift that is priceless. We worked hard and did not make a lot of money that summer. But the memories... Oh my goodness the memories. There are no words to explain the rugged natural landscape, the vast ocean, the abundant sea life and wildlife, the bigger than life individuals that I met and above all else- the love that I felt for Mark he for me. I egg from the bottom of my soul to return to those days. I realize that I am thankful for those memories. I truly am and I wouldn't trade them for anything. But right now it's like a beautiful, magical dream that I had and it holds all my happiness within it.....and I Will never ever able to go back there.
Comment by Sandy Elaine Norris on April 1, 2015 at 9:22pm

John T.-I can understand the contradiction. I struggle too. I'm not angry with God, but hurt and confused. If you don't mind me asking, how old was Diane?

Comment by Sandy Elaine Norris on April 1, 2015 at 9:19pm

Tildyc-Sometimes there are no answers. And sometimes when I pray, the answer is no. My belief and faith in God doesn't keep me from hurting. I am struggling with the loss of my Mark every single day. The only thing that keeps me going is knowing in my heart that I will see him again. In just a little while,2:03 in the morning, the love of my life will have been gone for 12 weeks. I miss him so much it hurts to breath sometimes.

Comment by Tildyc on April 1, 2015 at 8:48pm
Sandy Elaine Norris- I wish I had that security in my faith. Like I said for my mom it's been her rock. But me being who I am all my life – I'm always asking questions. And when I feel like I really need answers to something- I can be relentless in the pursuit of finding the answers. Sometimes to a fault. But I'm so happy that somebody is finding peace in this turmoil in which we are trying to survive. And I do believe in God I think, do you talk to him. But I also know there are so many different explanations out there. It's very confusing. And I am relentlessly searching for answers to my pain and to find out where my lost soulmate went.
Comment by Tildyc on April 1, 2015 at 7:57pm
Dianne- The crying and yelling his name is something I do. Where I walk the dogs is remote and isolated. So when I get to my the viewpoint- I cry and yell his name at the mountains and the sea. I ask him where has he gone and why won't he come home? I tell him I don't want to live in the future without him. I ask him why he doesn't come and get me? But the ocean and the mountains do not give me any answers. And neither does Mark. My heart and soul are broken and I just don't see Any light at the end of this tunnel.
Comment by Sandy Elaine Norris on April 1, 2015 at 7:15pm

I guess I'm much different. Since losing Mark, my faith has become stronger. I have always believed in God. I was raised in a Pentecostal Holiness church. God has always been very real to me. Without him, I would have no hope of ever seeing Mark, my mama, or all of my other loved ones that have passed. My heart is broken right now but without that hope, there is no way I could go on.

Comment by Dianne M. on April 1, 2015 at 6:50pm

I went to a meeting at my dads nursing home tonight and my husband should have been there with me. I cried and screamed all the way home. I am trying to be there for my dad but my heart is so broken I can barely function at times.

And I am mad at God too...my husband was a good and kind man who would do anything for anyone and for him to die so suddenly and with no warning or me even being able to say goodbye will haunt me forever. I dont know how \ why God let this happen or why he didn't save one of the good guys and let the trash in the world walk around with no purpose or love of anyone....I am just so mad/sad tonight.

 

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