December 27th, 2015 was the worst day of my life. I lost my husband, soulmate, and best friend in a car accident. He was on his way home from work and then he was gone. I was informed by the police what happened. 2 weeks have gone by and it still doesn't feel real, I miss him everyday, my house feels empty.  I'm struggle with where to go from here, he and I had so many plans, like buying a house and starting a family and that was all ripped away from me in a moment. Every where I look I'm reminded of him and the loss of him, I've never felt this kind of pain before.  I feel like I need to redefine who I am, it's no longer my husband and I now it's just me. I had him for 11 yrs and I'm so grateful for those years but I'm angry as well, I feel robbed of the life we should have had together, the life we planned, and worked so hard for. I'm just feeling so lost at the moment.

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Glennda I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost my partner exactly a year ago and the pain is still as deep and intense as it was a year ago. You do redefine oneself ...ones life has changed and the journey is hard and at times lonely and intensely painful .i feel your pain and it's ok to feel lost and confused because I know with my loss my world my everything stopped. I think I have learnt to carry Col, my partner with me in all I do , I keep his memory alive and I find that this helps me through the tough times. I have not been very active in this group because I find it hard sometimes to just for down and write how I feel, because it's painful and I find myself in tears. One has what I call my moments when tears just flow and the feelings become overwhelming. I find I cry myself to sleep each night and this gives me my own grieving time which in a way I can control.

For me the pain has never left it is there constantly and I think will be there forever. I want you to know that you are in my thoughts and this group has helped me through my darkest hours just by reading the comments allows one to know that the pain we feel is normal ....that their are others that understand and in a sense they take ones hand.

You are not alone ....and that's important to know. Each of us travels our own journey ....but we all feel the grief the loss the pain which is so deep that on certain days it feels like it will break our hearts even more if that is even possible.

When you look around the memories feel painful ...the loss becomes real but holding your loved one close in your heart ...in all u do ...means he will be with you forever .
Jeni

Hi I know it's little comfort for another to say "I'm sorry for your loss". Sincerely I must say I am, I'm not as new to it as you are but it really seems like yesterday for me as well. I say to others if you haven't walked a block in my shoes, there's not way you can understand. I don't expect you to understand because I don't!!! Hang in there.  

Hello Glenda, I lost my husband on December 22nd, to a car wreck, while he to was onhis way home from work. I was turning 22 the next day. I had been with him since the age of 14. He was my soul mate, guidance, strength, a wonderful father. He was my everything. My life. I do know the pain you feel. The complete sense of being lost. We are going to be redefined. It is the worst pain I have ever felt. SO much pain I do not even know how to feel. I am going through almost the same thing. Mine was a relationship of 8 years. I am here.

Glenda you and I are so fresh into this grieving journey. My husband was hit by a truck from behind while turning to come home on his motor cycle on December 14th. I am left with 2 young kids age 5 and 8. Our 8 year old is special needs. It's not fair, none of this is fair, but one thing I have learned already is that there is so much change with everything and sometimes even THAT can be overwhelming. It all sucks! But for me, I have no choice but to get up every morning and get my kids to school!
I'm am so sorry Glennda, i lost mine 3 months before yours, we also hade a 10 years relationship, I feel the same way you feel right now, he was everything to me, everything I dream of having in future. He loves you very much, he won't be leaving you any time soon, his going to protect you and he'll be waiting for you. Sometimes thing happen we could not changed, we could only live for them, I miss mine too, but God has plans for us still, there's good things yet to come. Hopes and dreams is coming your way, stay strong.

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