First I am very glad I found this site/group for help. Thanks in advance for all the support this site has to offer. 

My boyfriend passed away on February 19th, (last month) of a massive heart attack.  I kissed him goodbye, and 45 minutes later he was gone.  My heart has never felt so much pain.  Never have I hurt this bad.  I miss his presence, his touch, his laughter, his handsome blue eyes, his everything.  He was my saving grace. 

He came into my life when I needed him most.  After an emotionally abusive marriage of 33 years, I divorced, then met my soul mate.  It was/is a love story above all love stories.  He came from a few bad divorces, we both were hurt badly, but by chance with out looking we found each other. 

It is so hard to not have him here with me.  He was able to give me the peace of mind that True Love does exist.  We were making lifelong plans.  We were so happy.  I fell madly in love.  He fell madly in love.  He did so much for me, was always there for me to support me regardless of what I was going through.  Now he is suddenly taken away from me.  I feel we were cheated.  This is so hard for me to deal with.  I just don't know what to do anymore about anything.  I am a major scatter brain right now.  I just want my love back.  I need him so much.  Just one chance to touch and hug him, to say I love you.  I just can't take being with out him.  Thanks for hanging in there long enough to read this to the end. Always in pain.

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I am so sorry for your loss- although most of us here have lost someone we love and therefore can relate to your loss, since everyone's loss and pain is a distinctly personal and individual experience no one here can say that we know exactly how you feel.  

I lost my young wife who passed away unexpectedly a little over seven months ago at the age of 36 sometime after I left for work on August 8, 2014.  She was the center of my universe and I was still madly in love with her after 16 years of happy marriage.  Needless to say it was a dark time for me and continues to be difficult even now.  I am not certain how I made it through those first very difficult hours and days after she died, but somehow I did.  

 

I have no doubt that you are in a lot of pain right now, and I wish I had some sort of wise words or magical spell that would make things easier for you.  All I can say is that I could not imagine that I could ever live without my wife and did not think that I would ever find my way out of the darkness, but here I am - still miss her but I am doing my best to live as well as I can in her honor. 

 

Keep reaching out just like you are doing, and lean on family and friends for moral support.  Please don't give up.  And the good folks here will also do what they can to help out as well.

 

Sorry to hear of your loss.. every one here will support you any way we can, we all share a love that we lost and we have found each other for a different kind of support you can not find any were else...

Hughs to you

Hope that you will talk freely here we can see and understand things that others who have not lost someone can''t

God bless you

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