Online Grief Support - A Social Community2024-03-29T10:26:28ZA. Buytenhttp://www.onlinegriefsupport.com/profile/ABuytenhttp://storage.ning.com/topology/rest/1.0/file/get/2767216030?profile=original&width=48&height=48&crop=1%3A1http://www.onlinegriefsupport.com/group/traumaticsuddenloss/forum/topic/listForContributor?user=0fji21gn0wu1v&feed=yes&xn_auth=noNew to the Grouptag:www.onlinegriefsupport.com,2018-08-03:2054931:Topic:3253852018-08-03T03:11:24.623ZA. Buytenhttp://www.onlinegriefsupport.com/profile/ABuyten
<p>Hello All-</p>
<p>I am a new widow as my husband passed away April 21, 2018 at the age of 49. He suffered a heart attack and had no previous history of any heart conditions nor does it run in his family. I am 42 years old and we have a 7 year old daughter. I struggle with day to day life and have not fully grasped that my husband is not on a business trip and will never come back through the back door and life our daughter over his head after a big hug.</p>
<p>Hello All-</p>
<p>I am a new widow as my husband passed away April 21, 2018 at the age of 49. He suffered a heart attack and had no previous history of any heart conditions nor does it run in his family. I am 42 years old and we have a 7 year old daughter. I struggle with day to day life and have not fully grasped that my husband is not on a business trip and will never come back through the back door and life our daughter over his head after a big hug.</p> Strugglingtag:www.onlinegriefsupport.com,2018-07-31:2054931:Topic:3251602018-07-31T19:26:50.346ZA. Buytenhttp://www.onlinegriefsupport.com/profile/ABuyten
Hi. My name is Cristal. I lost the love of my life on July 2nd. He had leukemia and had no idea. I begged him to see a doctor in the months prior to his death but he would not do it. He also suffered from poorly controlled diabetes. I am struggling to get through the pain of losing him. His name was John.
Hi. My name is Cristal. I lost the love of my life on July 2nd. He had leukemia and had no idea. I begged him to see a doctor in the months prior to his death but he would not do it. He also suffered from poorly controlled diabetes. I am struggling to get through the pain of losing him. His name was John. My "Little Brother"tag:www.onlinegriefsupport.com,2017-08-28:2054931:Topic:3118072017-08-28T19:21:35.163ZA. Buytenhttp://www.onlinegriefsupport.com/profile/ABuyten
<p>Hi Everyone, </p>
<p>My name is Carlyn, and I live in the Ft. Lauderdale area. I joined this site because a very dear friend of mine was killed in a hit-and-run accident in May. My friend Rick, whom I called my "little brother" was on his bicycle in Back Bay Boston around 2am when a drunk driver rear ended him, sent him airborne, and then dragged him down the street while trying to flee. My friend died a day later. He was only 29. Rick was a kind, smart, funny man. He made people laugh; he…</p>
<p>Hi Everyone, </p>
<p>My name is Carlyn, and I live in the Ft. Lauderdale area. I joined this site because a very dear friend of mine was killed in a hit-and-run accident in May. My friend Rick, whom I called my "little brother" was on his bicycle in Back Bay Boston around 2am when a drunk driver rear ended him, sent him airborne, and then dragged him down the street while trying to flee. My friend died a day later. He was only 29. Rick was a kind, smart, funny man. He made people laugh; he cared passionately about injustices; he ate more than any man I've ever known. I called him a human garbage disposal and bought him groceries when he was broke. </p>
<p>My friend was going to learn to sail at the time of his death; I could picture him joining a round-the-world sailing crew and posting pictures from amazing places. He went to Israel on birthright; went to Spain, Burning Man, etc. He learned to firespin. </p>
<p>I feel like part of me is missing now. His death was so cruel and unnecessary. I'm grateful I was able to attend his memorial service, but the trial for his killer is ongoing. Part of me wants the man to go to jail for a very long time; the other part of me knows that won't bring Rick back.</p>
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<p>Anyway, sorry for the rambling, but as you can clearly tell, I'm still sorting out my emotions. </p> Loosing my father unexpectadlytag:www.onlinegriefsupport.com,2017-05-09:2054931:Topic:3051012017-05-09T03:47:48.083ZA. Buytenhttp://www.onlinegriefsupport.com/profile/ABuyten
<p>Hi i lost my dad just over 2 months ago now and its harder and harder everyday for me to cope. He was run over by a car on his way to my house and just a house over is where he was found i cant get them images out of my head i cant forget. He died a week later in Middlemore hospital in Auckland. It was the most draining week of my life to be told that there was nothing more that they could do for him after his operation on his neck he was not improving so heart breakingly his children me my…</p>
<p>Hi i lost my dad just over 2 months ago now and its harder and harder everyday for me to cope. He was run over by a car on his way to my house and just a house over is where he was found i cant get them images out of my head i cant forget. He died a week later in Middlemore hospital in Auckland. It was the most draining week of my life to be told that there was nothing more that they could do for him after his operation on his neck he was not improving so heart breakingly his children me my brothers and sisters were told that we had a choice to let him suffer for the rest of his life on a breathing machine and paralysed from the chest down or to just taken the tube out and let him breath freely until he lets go......the most hardest thing we have all had to go through ever he lasted a hour or 2 and then slowly let go to be with his mum. None of the images ever leave my head i cry everyday i just cant get through this i put on a smile for everybody and for my daughter who asks about her koro everyday. i need help but i cant speak to anyone i just start crying and that does not help.</p> booktag:www.onlinegriefsupport.com,2017-04-09:2054931:Topic:3033932017-04-09T22:18:28.070ZA. Buytenhttp://www.onlinegriefsupport.com/profile/ABuyten
<p>no 1 giv us a book on way we deal on loss we do it way we do</p>
<p>no 1 giv us a book on way we deal on loss we do it way we do</p> unexpectedtag:www.onlinegriefsupport.com,2017-02-28:2054931:Topic:3008362017-02-28T18:06:08.784ZA. Buytenhttp://www.onlinegriefsupport.com/profile/ABuyten
<p>hi i am 16 and i tragically lost my step father the night of july 1-aka july 2 2015 but it was at 2:51 am. i had gotten home that night from being with my friends and i went to bed and i was awaken by lights and noise . and i was told he wasnt breathing so they rushed him to the hospital, but he had already died. then, july 28 2015 i lost my grandma . its now a year and a half later and i still have so much grief and i dont know how to feel better about the deaths</p>
<p>hi i am 16 and i tragically lost my step father the night of july 1-aka july 2 2015 but it was at 2:51 am. i had gotten home that night from being with my friends and i went to bed and i was awaken by lights and noise . and i was told he wasnt breathing so they rushed him to the hospital, but he had already died. then, july 28 2015 i lost my grandma . its now a year and a half later and i still have so much grief and i dont know how to feel better about the deaths</p> Death of Only Childtag:www.onlinegriefsupport.com,2017-01-08:2054931:Topic:2971792017-01-08T03:24:41.960ZA. Buytenhttp://www.onlinegriefsupport.com/profile/ABuyten
<p>Hello,</p>
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<p>I lost my only child July 8, 2016. He was not a child, but an adult, but he was still my son and I loved him very much. I miss him terribly. In the past 10 months, my father-in-law died, my mother died and now my beloved son has died. My heart is broken and I cry every day and night. I guess I just wanted to vent. Thank you for listening.</p>
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<p>I lost my only child July 8, 2016. He was not a child, but an adult, but he was still my son and I loved him very much. I miss him terribly. In the past 10 months, my father-in-law died, my mother died and now my beloved son has died. My heart is broken and I cry every day and night. I guess I just wanted to vent. Thank you for listening.</p> so devastated and disorientatedtag:www.onlinegriefsupport.com,2016-12-06:2054931:Topic:2953352016-12-06T14:54:06.744ZA. Buytenhttp://www.onlinegriefsupport.com/profile/ABuyten
<p>My husband passed away November 25, 2016. The day after thanksgiving. I am completely devastated. He took care of everything for the 27 years we were together, so not only is my heart broken into pieces- but I am learning really really fast how to take care of myself. I would not wish this combination of extreme grief and terror of not even knowing how to do things like upkeep your car or change the furnace filter on anyone in the world. I miss him so very much, it feels like the pain…</p>
<p>My husband passed away November 25, 2016. The day after thanksgiving. I am completely devastated. He took care of everything for the 27 years we were together, so not only is my heart broken into pieces- but I am learning really really fast how to take care of myself. I would not wish this combination of extreme grief and terror of not even knowing how to do things like upkeep your car or change the furnace filter on anyone in the world. I miss him so very much, it feels like the pain will never get any better.</p> 2 tragic deaths 5 days apart..tag:www.onlinegriefsupport.com,2016-12-04:2054931:Topic:2948702016-12-04T05:30:32.984ZA. Buytenhttp://www.onlinegriefsupport.com/profile/ABuyten
<p>Hello my name is Julie I'm 26 years old. On oct 30th/2016 my Mother commit suicide in my family home and my Father found her. She had become mentally ill since 2014 but never had any or much depression in her life until that time. The doctors had put her on anti depressants. She was also facing menopause which I believe changed her and was un able to cope anymore... Would never think my Mom would do that in a million years. She was a positive spunky person, very gentle. 5 DAYS later…</p>
<p>Hello my name is Julie I'm 26 years old. On oct 30th/2016 my Mother commit suicide in my family home and my Father found her. She had become mentally ill since 2014 but never had any or much depression in her life until that time. The doctors had put her on anti depressants. She was also facing menopause which I believe changed her and was un able to cope anymore... Would never think my Mom would do that in a million years. She was a positive spunky person, very gentle. 5 DAYS later Nov4/2016 my boyfriend of 2 years, my everything.. got into an altercation with police near his family home. He was tasered and died instantly. He was an amazing gentle person, very caring and generous and would never hurt anyone. He would never make a scene or cause attention to himself especially with police. The case is very suspicious... I miss them both dearly and love them so much they were the most important people in my life and now there is no one to turn to except strangers and friends... I had to attend both their funerals in the same week. Just wondering if there is anyone else out there like me ... love</p> Loss of boyfriend due to motorcycletag:www.onlinegriefsupport.com,2016-12-02:2054931:Topic:2947032016-12-02T20:27:39.294ZA. Buytenhttp://www.onlinegriefsupport.com/profile/ABuyten
<p><br></br><span>Hello everyone, my name is Brittany. I am new to this and not quiet sure how this works. My therapist pointed me in this direction so i thought i would give it a try. I am 24 years old from Wisconsin. I met my boyfriend, Kyle, last March through a mutual friend. We clicked instantly. He was tall, buff and had the most amazing eyes. I felt butterflies in stomach right when i saw him. We chatted for awhile and i came to learn he went to Minnesota to play football for 5 years.…</span></p>
<p><br/><span>Hello everyone, my name is Brittany. I am new to this and not quiet sure how this works. My therapist pointed me in this direction so i thought i would give it a try. I am 24 years old from Wisconsin. I met my boyfriend, Kyle, last March through a mutual friend. We clicked instantly. He was tall, buff and had the most amazing eyes. I felt butterflies in stomach right when i saw him. We chatted for awhile and i came to learn he went to Minnesota to play football for 5 years. Football was his life and his biggest accomplishment. He was so proud of everything he had done at only the age of 25. I fell for him right there and then. We spent all last summer laughing, spending every single minute with each other, going to country concerts, riding his motorcycle all around the town and just having the time of our lives. He was so amazing and so perfect. We started to get really serious towards the end of summer and made everything official. We did everything together. He was my whole life. We spent the holidays together, it was perfect. We used to talk about our future a lot. How many kids we wanted, where we should get married, the house we would live in. It was amazing. He would talk about our future with such excitement. We decided it was time for us to get our first apartment together. Our official move in date was </span><span class="aBn"><span class="aQJ">August 13th</span></span><span>. We were both so happy and excited to finally have a place to call our own. He made everything perfect for me and made sure the house was VERY clean everyday. That was my favorite part of Kyle. He was a super neat freak. Our apartment was never dirty. He was perfect. We spent the first week setting everything up and making sure it was nice and homey for us. We loved it. We would come home each day after work and we would just sit and watch tv, make dinner together and just enjoy each others company. Everytime he would walk into the door, his face would light up when he saw me and he would come over, give me a kiss and say "i missed you today". This happened everyday and i loved every second of it. The love we had was something really special. We both felt it and were both so obsessed with each other. Everything was starting to fall into place. I had the perfect home, the perfect boyfriend who wanted to marry me and an amazing job. On November 2nd, Kyle and i laid in bed and talked about how much we loved each other. He told me he was so happy he met me and that he was the happiest he had ever been. That was the last time Kyle and i were able to talk about our happy future. On November 4th, Kyle left our house at </span><span class="aBn"><span class="aQJ">5:30</span></span><span>, on his motorcycle, to deposit his check and get a haircut at </span><span class="aBn"><span class="aQJ">6:20</span></span><span>. We lived 10 minutes from the haircut place. He snapchatted me at </span><span class="aBn"><span class="aQJ">6:00</span></span><span> and said "im early" with a goofy face. I snapped him back and told him to go in already. That was the last time i ever got to talk to my amazing boyfriend. I started to clean the house for him when he left. The next time i looked at the clock, it was </span><span class="aBn"><span class="aQJ">7:45</span></span><span>. I knew something was wrong, i could feel it in my stomach, it felt like i was going to puke. He was always so good at telling me he got places safely when he was on his bike. I called my mom hysterically crying telling her i could feel something was wrong. She calmed me down and right when i hung up the phone, the police buzzed into my apartment. And at that moment i knew my life was over and that i had lost the love of my life. Everything after that is a blurr. At </span><span class="aBn"><span class="aQJ">6:40</span></span><span> when Kyle was on his way home to me, a car didn't see him on the motorcycle and there was an accident. The guy got scared because he didnt see him and thought he could then cut him off across the street. The suv flipped, kyle slammed on his brake and tried to lay the bike down, but he was too late. The car hit him and that's where my boyfriend died. A block away from his parents house, and about a mile away from our apartment. This has been the worst thing that has ever happened to me. He was my world. And its so horrible because we never got the chance to have a future together. We were robbed of a future at just the ages of 24 and 25. He was so amazing and i miss him everyday. Its been almost a month and i still feel like it happened just yesterday. I loved Kyle with all my heart.</span></p>