I am an only child...I lost my dad at 2 & my mom at 27, which I had just given birth to her first grandbaby 22 days before she passed away. Trying to be a parent, with no one around to say "did I do that when I was little....is this normal" has been exceptionally hard for me. My baby boy is now 3 & I still go to pick up the phone to call her. "What about a grandma or other family?" people ask...well my moms mom, my other best friend...died almost to the day, 2 years after mom did. So I really am completely alone. Married, yes, but he's not supportive, & his family...well....I'll just say I have no one to call. Holidays are the worst.......
Have you ever had people tell you afterwards that they're here for you, but then they never follow through? That's been happening to me a lot lately.
Right after everything happened, I've had people come up to me and say…"
"I feel the same way, I cant run from my self.The pain is physical every part of me hurts. My girl loved to laugh and I know she would not want me to be in pain and sad all the time so I try to put on a happy face but inside I am screaming how is the…"
"I can relate to your experience. My mother was just recently murdered by her partner/spouse. He shot her 3 times. At least one shot was to her head, the other two shots I'm still waiting for the autopsy report to know where the other two shots…"