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Lost my spouce a couple of weeks ago and now what do I do with the rest of my life after 55 years with the same person?Continue
Started by kathy. Last reply by Linda Engberg yesterday.
This aloneness is not going to be fun. It is so lonely without him.Continue
Started by kathy on Tuesday.
Hello,I've been reading the messages here and it's brought back memories of an earlier time in my grief. I feel for each of you. This loss is the most difficult of human struggles -- at least it has…Continue
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Started by Trevy Thomas. Last reply by Vicki on Monday.
I lost my wife 6 weeks ago and I'm in agony every day. We've been together for 51 years, married for 48. Met at age 16. We were like one person. We knew everything about each other. No secrets,…Continue
Started by joe kelly. Last reply by Trevy Thomas Apr 9.
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Hi Joe I lost my wife 9 Months ago after knowing her from going steady in H S for 60 years and then holding her in my arms while she took her last breath-people do not know the loss you feel I try to get by but still hard to think or plan and please no problems today -nights are lonely from meal time to bed-Try and have a fair day-Bologna and toast for lunch now you don't have to plan
Morgan, Thanks for the post. It's not even 3 months since I lost my wonderful wife and I decided that I'm not interested in "getting better". That's what those who say they want to help want me to do. I have a few friends that understand, one of which lost his wife 8 months ago. He feels the same way and says that most of the people wanting to fix us never had TRUE LOVE with someone for most of their lives. One therapist I saw because he lost his wife a couple of years ago. Well, he has a girl friend already and says that his wife would had wanted him to have a happy full life. My love gave me a full happy life and when she died, so did I because "We Two BECAME One". I don't want to "be fixed". I just want to join her. I'll function the best I can but she's on my mine 24/7 and the pain will always be there till I join her. I hope sooner rather than later. Thanks to all who share here.
Morgan,
All that you shared in your post, is exactly the way I feel, if it wasn't for my beautiful dog Babie J I think I would go crazy, she is the only thing keeping me going, she is 13 and not in good health. When she passes I really believe I will go mad. Even though I have her I go through this world like a zombie.
morgan, I am with you. It feels so unimaginably bad... it IS unimaginably bad, this ultimate loss we are suffering, living with. Who would want to go on under these circumstances that we are experiencing? Some people don’t feel as bad. Everyone’s grief is different — that is said so often, but many seem to forget this, apparently thinking if they are OK again after bereavement, we can all be OK. Sending you a big hug (and clinging on even if you try to fight me off), Alice x
bluebird, thank you so much for the reassurance :-)
For most of the five plus years I have been enduring the loss of my beloved husband I have tried very hard to see if there was a way to make the pain I cope with "better". Keeping myself super busy, finally getting up some courage to join a group of interest, keep trying to explain to people close to me how I try to cope, etc etc.
Now I am angry. It is a different kind of angry but I'll try to explain. Because I think I have tried so hard to not give up/give in I have battled the grief I continually thought I was going to find a reason, a way where life would seem less miserable.
Today I just have given up trying to pretend there is something that is going to help me and all I am is pissed that I am breathing. I am so angry that because I am breathing I am being forced to participate in a world that I hate. I have no need for any of this and I get to the point where I talk to the air and tell my husband how pissed I am that he left me back here to have to keep getting through days. Not because I cant because after five plus years I have proven that I can but because every single day of this grueling task of living I have no desire to be here. No desire at all. It doesn't matter what I do. How things are. Inevitably during each and every day I am mad that I am being forced to live out this life.
I continue to attempt to do the things necessary to pay bills and even that, I have decided that I will continue but if I run out of money before I can get something done that I am working on I am just going to throw in the towel. I don't give a shit anymore. And when I cry some of he breakdowns are just the worst. Two days ago I had such a bad one that had my neighbor friend not come by (yes, she called as though my husband had sent her a message that she should call to see what I was doing) I was really in a very bad place. She talked me through it and I was totally exhausted. Then the next day I can only wonder to myself how I can go that far down when the next day I am able to get up and at least start on another day. Whats with this brain?
I read and listen to each of you and hear some here are better able to define how to deal with their grief but most of us I see as flailing around with no answers and wondering what next and how to.
I am tired and once again it is almost 3am and what do I care? Why bother with a decent sleep schedule? Why bother eating well? Why worry about getting a disease? I'm so over it all. Just tired of having to breathe.
Marjorie, i will look into this for sure. Thank you.
Linda, i understand. Because of our son i work in keeping myself together. My friends don't really understand me. Really don't find anything anymore that makes me feel good. Just like to be left alone. Gid Bless you!
Hi Beth
I lost my husband 5 years ago to cancer, he had children but we did not so I don't know if my answer is valid to your situation. As for myself, this grieve will never end. It is less painful but my life is not fulfilled, all I live for is join him.
Beth did you read my message about the online grief relief programme I've just completed with Denise Dielwart? Just google her name. she offers a free telephone call to start you off.
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