7 wksago my live together 10 yrs love collapsed dead in one minute sudden cardiac.

I cannot deal with the unfinished business I was working on with him who I love so deeply.

my eyes hurt so much from crying and losing sleep. He and I traveled and did so much 24/7 as we were retired. Now I am alone most family gone also. 12 yrs ago my husband of 30+ yrs died cancer but we had time together to mourn, cry, hug.  So hard to count blessings when you have so little hope to go on. CH

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CH,

Sorry for your loss, I wanted to kill myself when my Husband died 5 years ago, he was my whole life, we retired together and did everything together.  There is nothing for me to live for, I just wait each day for God to take me so I can join him.

Dear Linda I follow your postings and feel just as you do. Life for me can never be fulfilling because I WAS fulfilled. Now I'm an empty shell.

Dear CH. Two lost loves that's really hard. I lost the love of my life to a sudden death t to 17 months ago and I know I'll never get over it. Like you we were retired and travelled the world. After 3 months of coping I had a full blown nervous breakdown and had to be hospitalized I see other widows who seem to be coping but I cant envisage another 20 years without him by my side. Everyday is awful. I have to go on because I have 3 grown up sons but I just can't imagine it.

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