While I admit to being psychologically complex lol, I realize how ignorant I have been. I have spent time going after women who resemble Her in any sort of way. After all the days and nights gazing into those pictures, and all the visits, I realize that although Her physical body was a PERFECT representation of Her essence, that body is no more and it's that very essence that still keeps me in this euphoric fantasy that continuously gets better and better in ways that are unimaginable and cannot be fathomed by one unless they've experienced Her. There may be loss of that body, but absolutely no loss of life. 

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Thanks for sharing this - good to read. This helps all of us.

When you wirte abouut visits what kind of visits do you mean?

She visits when I'm in trance and sometimes even in dreams

Thanks - wonderful.

Jon,

Thank you for sharing with us, very pretty lady.

Jon-Paul, I love reading this. I wonder if you can share how you get into a trance state? (I realize that this is a very complicated question - but maybe the process that you went through to achieve this?) I've been practicing meditation for the year since my husband Tom died, in the hopes of getting into a trance state. My goal is to be able to communicate with him. I'd also like to try a Life-between-lives hypnosis in hopes that I can find out why we decided on this life and what I am supposed to be learning from it.  But, unfortunately I am a type-A personality and pretty left-brained. So, while I try and try, I really just get frustrated. I feel like I should be able to do this. I have had many amazing experiences that come when I am almost asleep. Most recently I felt the bed move a little and, because I've felt this before, I told myself to just stay still and not do anything and then I felt the bed move more and then Tom climbed in and wrapped himself around me. I could see the shirt he was wearing and feel the solidness of his arms. So I know he's here. I want to be able to actually hear what he thinks about so many things. All I'm living for right now is the hopes of having a visit from him or communicating with him. But I am really at the mercy of when I'm in that almost asleep state and it doesn't happen as often as I'd like. I want to be able to get there more! If there is anything you can share, I would really appreciate it.

Lol well that would incriminate me right into baker act won't it hahaha but seriously, I lost it. It's not a great thing if u have a life to live. Idk when I'm in trance, dreaming, or "real life", and I realize that it doesn't matter because it's all reality, all intertwined and woven tightly. I can suggest to think in terms of vibrations and frequencies. Your energy state can travel much faster than a text message. Extensive metaphysics study helped. Making vibrations with your voicebox has various effects on the gland in your top brain, releasing various chemicals u didn't remember u could produce. Have fun with that lol I also implemented cactus and mushrooms but that's not necessarily suggested lol

hahaha well I agree with you about it not being a great thing to have a life to live. And I'm not opposed to trying other methods like you mentioned - have thought kind-of seriously about ibogaine... But, thanks for the reply and the suggestions... thinking about vibrations and frequencies more now.

Iboga is more of a receptor resetter lol like to kick addictions and reverse disorders ect. I like to meditate on whatever thoughts hurt the most, and thee absolute worst scenarios. It leads me straight to my Source. Core. Then I can pretty much do whatever I want... but I always end up back here.

Oh! Shoot. I'm sure I have some disorders lol but that's not what I'm trying to do! 

Well I'm sure I can meditate on whatever hurts the most. God, idk if I wanna do that. I'll probably just cry and cry and cry. I know what you mean... still stuck here, despite where you are able to go. I wish I were able to go where you seem to be able to... even if I have to come back here. I wonder sometimes if I just want it too bad and try too hard. It seems like when I don't try I get closer to where I want to go. Maybe I just need to keep at it. I've read some stuff about metaphysics but maybe you have some recommendations? 

Jon-Paul,

Thanks for your post, I am learning to mediate, but is very hard when you suffer severe anxiety. I now got to a place every Sunday called Center for Spirit Living, it keeps me going.

Very envious of your ability to visit. I've been trying so hard, but maybe too hard. I have had visits in dreams so I nap a lot trying to have another dream. LOL. your comments give me hope.

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