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Annette passed May 19th. I was devastated that my soulmate had gone. After being inconsolable and a fountain of tears, over night a few days ago, I was suddenly numb. I find it hard to care about anything other than our son James. I'm putting on a great show I think, but it is just a show. If it weren't for my boy I would join Annette. Im scared of what happens next, and wonder if I'll ever care again. I'm counting the days that I'll be raising our wonderful 14 year old, but look forward to joining her soon after.
This whole thing has been hell, and I guess I have just given up hope for anything better. I just need to keep a smile face on the outside.
Hi, Ronnie. The death of your soulmate strips down to bedrock those who are important to you. Your son is #1 now and when you start to drown you can struggle to keep your head above water and you'll see him there, and you will know why you are here. You're going through the worst period of your life and it's HELL. I don't know how the human heart can take such a beating. Regards, AnneJ.
My husband has been gone 4 years, died of colon cancer, I have been numb since the day he died, I just go through the everyday motions. My broken heart will never heal.
Wow. My first holiday without her has sucked. We moved to Central America a few years ago but always had some kind of celebration. I have no urge this year because I just feel dead inside. I'm glad James and I are with my parents today so he has someone to be enthusiastic with.
I'm guessing all the holidays are going to feel empty from now on. I can't imagine how her birthday is going to be like.
I have heard the firsts of everything are the worst. Going to the first great granddaughters birthday party was devastating for me. When I got in the car all by myself I cried like a baby all the way home as this was the first birthday spent without my precious Jim. I really am not looking forward to Thanksgiving and Christmas but I know I will make it through. Hang in There Ronnie and stay tough for your son.
The only time peace will be with me is when I join my Husband, he was my everything.