My husband was truly the love of my life.  On just a regular day at home, he began trying to cut down a tree on our property.  (I didn't know what he was doing at the time).  Once my daughter came to look for him, we found him lying on the ground severely injured, still awake and able to converse a little.  We called for help and 911.  However, at the the time of the accident, Oregon had had a severe ice storm.  We had electrical lines down entering our property and electrical lines down all around the area on streets, making access difficult and slow.  Unfortunately it would seem the delays in responding and ultimately the doctors attempt to save him from internal bleeding resulted in him having severe strokes and heart attacks.  My husband was 69 years old but in great health.  Without such an accident I always believed he would out live me. (I am 10 years his junior).  But, on this devastating and awful day, he went into a coma and ultimately I had to choose to let him go.  I knew in my heart he wouldn't want to live in such a disabled and significantly poor health.  

I miss him with all my heart.  Our daughter, disabled adult, is with me and is equally devastated without him.  He was our rock!  He was our everything!  

Although I know that all losses are extremely hard, I'm wondering if anyone can related to the circumstances with which I am coping.  

My love to all who has lost someone.  Grieving is so hard.

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Dear Linda

I know what it's like to lose a loved one to a suicide and my husband only weeks ago passed from a 5 year battle with cancer.  I can't imagine what you have been through:  plus having to make that decision to let him go.  You are so right, grieving is hard and some days I know in my case, I feel I just can't go on.  But I know Pete wouldn't want me to feel that way.   My husband was also 10 years older than me and when you least expect it one of us has to let the other one go.  Love hurts.

Thinking of you and please take care - 

A big hug to you

Ros

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