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I miss my Mom!

If you have that hole in your heart that you get when you lose the woman that you shared a body with....

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Comment by Theresa on October 17, 2018 at 5:51am

I know you know I did not mean it in that way, but of course not, my question, should I be thankful she did not suffer and lay in a bed and me have to watch her suffer and be able to do nothing as so many had to do on this site.  But as you know is it a double edge sword, you all got to be there with your moms, and let them know you loved them, I did not, as my mom used to say the Lord can take you at any time anywhere and thats exactly how he took her without notice.  We all have heavy hearts or we would not be posting on here, each one of our stories different with the same ending.

Comment by Brett Bowman on October 16, 2018 at 9:09pm

Theresa, I don't know if we can be thankful that our mom's died under any circumstances. 

Comment by Theresa on October 16, 2018 at 11:29am
True Brett
Should I be thankful? My mom died in an instant she was herself until the last minute. Some say I’m lucky I didn’t have to watch her suffer. But my mom used to always say we suffer everyday in this earth.
I would have been right at her bedside if she was sick. I would not have left her side. But our Lord chose another path for her and I.
You know it aggravates me when people say do you know how lucky you are actually I hate them and I really have nothing to say to them but is that what you think You’ll see
Comment by Brett Bowman on October 16, 2018 at 10:47am
No, she didn't everyone, good or bad, dies. Few people have an easy death.
Comment by Theresa on October 16, 2018 at 8:45am
Wow Avi I believe in karma but I’m not sure that your mom has done anything wrong present or past that would make her have gotten that disease
Comment by Avi on October 16, 2018 at 8:11am

Thanks Theressa. Yes hope the questions will be answered. In my country, lot of importance is given to Karma and it is believed that whatever you sow and you will reap the same. Not sure how this karma cycle is analyzed and who decided if this was a bad karma. If I believe that my mom got this horrible disease due to her past karmas then it is very disturbing because she was such a nice lady. Then people say that it is karma of past lives. Hard to understand but need to believe.

Comment by Theresa on October 16, 2018 at 7:50am
Yes Avi That’s what we all have to do we have to go on with our lives it’s so much easier said than done I cry sometimes uncontrollably I have hope that one day every question or any uncertainty we have will be answered
Comment by Avi on October 16, 2018 at 7:43am

Guys it is completely 1 year when my mother's cancer was detected. I hope I can go back in time and change everything but I can only live with it. 

Comment by Theresa on October 16, 2018 at 5:47am

Same Brett, yesterday out of the blue driving home from work I burst into tears saying mom why didn't you wait for me to get there before you went in cardiac arrest, well now isn't that stupid on my part.  

I feel that I am a changed person, not the same as I was before.  I never question God, because I know in my heart he with beside me through thick and thin.

I always say mom please somehow let me know you are near me, nothing yet.

and Brett, my lab is 11 I am watching him age right in front of me getting arthritic, and so on, I pray please God help me, he is all I have, I pray to the Blessed Sacrament in the Chapel every Friday during my volunteer hour, please don't take my dog, not yet.

Comment by Brett Bowman on October 16, 2018 at 1:43am

I'll keep going though. I'll keep praying. I'll keep putting one foot in front of the other, but I do not seem to get anywhere.

I will always pray for a wink or a nod. Just something to let me know that the Lord is walking with me.

I'm broken. 

 

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