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I miss my Mom!

If you have that hole in your heart that you get when you lose the woman that you shared a body with....

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Comment by Avi on May 14, 2019 at 9:33am

Hi Betty, 

I wish for your comfort as guilt is a tough emotion. I am sailing in the same ship as you. 


This is Avi from India. 

Comment by Brett Bowman on May 13, 2019 at 1:49pm

Betsy, this is a tough post to answer or respond to, because I know that you have already put yourself on trial and found yourself guilty. You are not going to be consoled now. You want people to tell you that it wasn't your fault, but you will argue with anyone who does. I'm in tremendous pain myself and I do not have the energy to fight with you.

I will tell you that there is nothing in the world sadistic about a DNR. More times than not it is merciful. When a person is that sick, what they need is more important than what we need. I needed for my mom to live. Her body would not allow that. Mom had a DNR. I miss her every day. It's horrible. I sure know that I didn't kill her though. If I hadn't given her water and food, or if I had laughed when she called out to me, that would have been killing her. Did you do that? I sincerely doubt it. 

Comment by Betty Ellsworth on May 13, 2019 at 10:11am

Whoever came up with dnr. Must have been a sadistic person.  I lost my mom over three ago.  Now I'm hearing ads of cures and treatments and now have the guilt.  I keep hear the words of the doctor that I was tying his hands and I was killing her and I would be condemn. To hell.  I cry every night and I know now the doctor was right I did kill her

Comment by M Adams on May 12, 2019 at 11:43am

This Mother’s Day I keep thinking about my mother’s gift of joy ...she had a very unusual ability to appreciate things, even the simplest things, and people, and events large or small, and thereby to create joy for those around her.

Despite the sadness of loss, hope you all are able to revisit some beautiful memories today.

Comment by Sue Toler on May 7, 2019 at 11:26am

Thank you, that is so true.  It hurts because I was blessed to have a wonderful Mom.  I know I will always miss her, 

Comment by M Adams on May 7, 2019 at 11:03am

Sue, we are in a similar situation — this is the first Mother’s Day without my mother for me as well.  My husband’s birthday often fell on Mother’s Day, which he liked, as he loved celebrations but didn’t like them to be very focused on him.  My mother had the same quirk, so it worked out well to have shared parties or a weekend of celebration.  Very different now, but I am trying to be grateful as well as sad.

The packet of seeds that I mentioned earlier has some writing on the back that seems relevant — will try to put a photo of it here.

Comment by Sue Toler on May 7, 2019 at 6:24am

I have been dreading Mother's Day.  It will be my first without my Mom.  Thanks for what you wrote.  It gives me hope.  I wish I could have told my Mom one more time what a wonderful Mom she was & how much I loved her.  Thanks for your kind words & wisdom.  

Comment by Brett Bowman on May 7, 2019 at 12:16am

Mother's Day is my mom's birthday. There is good and bad about being further removed from my mom's death. I remember when she died, in the days and weeks that followed I would think to myself, "In 20 years maybe I will have adjusted to this." It's going on three and a half years and the trauma of her death has abated, but one thing I regret is that my mom is not as fresh in my memory as she was. I think about her every day, but I can't hear her voice or picture her face as easily. The memories are still there but I feel further removed from them. Immediately after our moms die it is hard to accept the reality that they are gone. You just saw her. You just talked to her. It's hard to imagine saying, "Mom" and not having her answer. The second phase of grieving for your mom is when you finally know that she is gone and she is not coming back. That's a cold reality. Now it's about holding on to what I knew. M, those little green shoots you saw are important. You are keeping her memory alive.

Comment by M Adams on May 6, 2019 at 11:28pm

My mother was the heart of our family — hard to go on without her, but I appreciate the image of love continuing to flower.  At her memorial packages of seeds were given out — she loved to garden and grew beautiful roses, lilies, tomatoes, everything.  A while back I put them in a pot on the windowsill, watered them and set the pot inside a plastic bag.  This morning checked for the first time and saw some little green shoots coming up.  In a way I’m dreading Mother’s Day but this made me feel a bit closer to her.

Comment by Sue Toler on May 6, 2019 at 8:09am

How beautiful, thank you.  I took care of my Mom & am so thankful now to have been there for her.  She took such good care of my brother & I, always there for us.  

 

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