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I miss my Mom!

If you have that hole in your heart that you get when you lose the woman that you shared a body with....

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Comment by Brett Bowman on August 2, 2019 at 10:57pm

She's 13. Today I took her for a real long walk before I left. She wasn't crying when I came home tonight. That doesn't mean she didn't cry. I don't know. Walking her that far seems like a good idea but she is really old and it may be too much for her. She sort of gave out three quarters of the way through. It's really hot here.

I had a real scare tonight. It has been raining really hard here. On my way home tonight, the police had every main road blocked off because of flooding. I had to try several different ways to get home. Mostly I was just worried about not being able to get to her. She has to have insulin twice a day. The idea of losing her is too much. I know it has to happen some day. It would be hard enough, even if my mom were still alive, but it will be so much worse without my mom. This dog is about that last piece of my mom that I have left. I can close my eyes and still hear my mom baby talking her.

It is always something, Theresa. And unfortunately, it seems like the most sacred things in my life are the things that are most vulnerable. I'm tired. I have been soul sick for the last three and a half years.  

Comment by Theresa on August 2, 2019 at 8:10pm
That is so hard to hear especially when you are leaving.
Is this a recent thing?
How old is she again?
It seems as though it’s always something new every day
I am agonizing over watching my boy get old. Before I always had my mom there for support and now I don’t. I feel so anxious all the time. I’m scared to face losing him all alone without her here telling me it will be ok
Comment by Brett Bowman on August 2, 2019 at 1:54pm

Yeah, I am having a problem as well. All of a sudden my dog has started to cry from the time I leave to work until the time I come home. She sounds like a coyote. She bays. My neighbors have been telling me about it. I live in an apartment. This can't go on forever. Life is hard enough right now without having the fear of losing my dog. I wouldn't get rid of her. I would never do that, but if I just go to another apartment the same thing will happen. I don't know what to do. The little dog doesn't realize that, if she really misses me that much, this is the worst possible move. Not only that. I hate the idea of her being so sad. I am going to take her to the vet next week. Maybe  they can help. There is just so much guilt for me. I used to feel so bad when I had to leave my mom to go to work. Mom needed me at home before I became her full time caretaker. Now, I just walk out the door and all I hear is crying. It's heartbreaking. 

Sue, I am with you today.

Comment by Sue Toler on August 2, 2019 at 10:09am

Thank you, I appreciate it!  Hope you have a good day & weekend & thanks again, 

Comment by Theresa on August 2, 2019 at 8:42am

Thank you Sue. I will remember you also 

Comment by Sue Toler on August 2, 2019 at 8:12am

Thanks so much!  I feel so for everyone here & what they are going through.  It helps to have others that understand.  I have thought about you & your dog.  My little dog is all I have left & I know she is still grieving.  My Mom adored her & she was so close to her.  Thanks again.  I will keep you in my prayers.  Take care, 

Comment by Theresa on August 2, 2019 at 7:17am

Sue  I know exactly how you feel I still cry three years later it just hits me so hard some days I just try to keep going 1 foot in front of the other I’m getting ready to leave for church letting you know I’m thinking about you and everyone on here 

Comment by Sue Toler on August 2, 2019 at 7:06am

It has been five months today since my Mom passed & it has been rough.  Started the day crying.  I just wanted to stay home today & cry, but knew I had to go to work.  Hope things are little better for others.  

Comment by Sue Toler on July 18, 2019 at 6:43am

I just feel like I am in a fog.  I have a little dog that is at least ten years old.  She adored my Mom & she has really grieved for her.  I know how you feel about your dog.  I worry about her.  She is all I have.  After I lost Mom, I felt like I lost such a huge part of my life.  I am not the same person.  My Mom always wanted family to be close.  All that has changed.  Theresa, like you said we just go on living until we are called home.  

Comment by Theresa on July 18, 2019 at 5:01am

Me too Brett, I sit here an look at my 12 year old Labrador and I know he is on borrowed time, and my heart breaks, losing him will be something that I am not looking forward to.

As you said Brett, we have the live our lives until we are called home.

Some days are painful, I find that most days I'm not happy, but I pray for God to give me strength.

 

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