On the 1st of July 2020, I watched my life take her last breath. My life was and in many ways still is about my mother. I have never felt more lost and empty than I do now since she left. Fast forward to the 4th of October and I attempted suicide. I was unsuccessful unfortunately. I still don't want to be here but I'm forcing myself to live because I mean I wake up everyday so clearly God isn't ready to accept me into his kingdom.Until then nothing about life feels okay. I really miss my mom.

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Tamicah, every second that passes by is one second that brings you closer to your mom. The Lord will come for you in his time. I'm waiting too. It's been five years for me and I haven't grown accustomed to being without my mom. I miss her every day, every hour, every second. I wish I could just push a button and be in heaven with my mom but there is no such button. Like our moms, we have to live our lives, hopefully in honor of them, and then one sweet day...

I'm sorry you lost your mom. Believe me when I tell you that I know what it feels like to lose the person you love the most. 

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