Online Grief Support - A Social Community2024-03-28T08:51:41ZBrenda Annhttp://www.onlinegriefsupport.com/profile/BrendaAnnhttp://storage.ning.com/topology/rest/1.0/file/get/2787766042?profile=RESIZE_48X48&width=48&height=48&crop=1%3A1http://www.onlinegriefsupport.com/group/imissmymom/forum/topic/listForContributor?user=1ne7vhwu0vhpc&feed=yes&xn_auth=noMissing my identitytag:www.onlinegriefsupport.com,2022-08-04:2054931:Topic:4377472022-08-04T09:16:28.577ZBrenda Annhttp://www.onlinegriefsupport.com/profile/BrendaAnn
<p>Mother hás such a powerful influênce, that sinse she passed a few years ago i feel i lost good part of my identity. I have done a lot in my life. But she hás a bigger print in me than i realized. I loved tô run tô tell her good things and see her rejoyce with me was a very powering process. Now i have tô rejoyce quietly, as no other person on Earth is like her. She rejoyced with me the smallest things. Every litthe thing was special. We made tem special. We cheeared each other when sad.…</p>
<p>Mother hás such a powerful influênce, that sinse she passed a few years ago i feel i lost good part of my identity. I have done a lot in my life. But she hás a bigger print in me than i realized. I loved tô run tô tell her good things and see her rejoyce with me was a very powering process. Now i have tô rejoyce quietly, as no other person on Earth is like her. She rejoyced with me the smallest things. Every litthe thing was special. We made tem special. We cheeared each other when sad. Unfortunately mo other person on Earth can replace that. Validation. Its not about money. How good my health or looks are. My mother loved é very little thing about me. And i loved every little thing about her too. Its Hard tô find 1 percent of that in any other person. Then its a painful process when i try tô have this in other People. Its like showing vulnerability or success is usrless. They Either expect too much or throw in the dumps. And that cause me a roller coaster. Im having tô adjust and triste more myself and dond try tô find her responses elsewhere. She was unique. She is irrepleaceable. She was a beautiful soul. I Will miss her i guess gorever. But being abre tô cope building all she was tô me inside is a work in progress.....</p> i need my momtag:www.onlinegriefsupport.com,2021-08-13:2054931:Topic:4303672021-08-13T18:15:22.365ZBrenda Annhttp://www.onlinegriefsupport.com/profile/BrendaAnn
<p>i need my mom i feal so loss now shes gon </p>
<p>i need my mom i feal so loss now shes gon </p> I want my Mommytag:www.onlinegriefsupport.com,2021-04-08:2054931:Topic:4257062021-04-08T01:13:46.774ZBrenda Annhttp://www.onlinegriefsupport.com/profile/BrendaAnn
<p>This is the first time I have not felt good since I lost my Mom. The only thing I can think of is "I want my Mommy". I miss her holding me and kissing my head to make me feel better. Yeah, I 'm a big baby but that is ok. ;) Sometimes it just helps to talk about what I miss.</p>
<p>This is the first time I have not felt good since I lost my Mom. The only thing I can think of is "I want my Mommy". I miss her holding me and kissing my head to make me feel better. Yeah, I 'm a big baby but that is ok. ;) Sometimes it just helps to talk about what I miss.</p> Worst Documented Day of my lifetag:www.onlinegriefsupport.com,2020-10-29:2054931:Topic:3598942020-10-29T05:46:25.917ZBrenda Annhttp://www.onlinegriefsupport.com/profile/BrendaAnn
On the 1st of July 2020, I watched my life take her last breath. My life was and in many ways still is about my mother. I have never felt more lost and empty than I do now since she left. Fast forward to the 4th of October and I attempted suicide. I was unsuccessful unfortunately. I still don't want to be here but I'm forcing myself to live because I mean I wake up everyday so clearly God isn't ready to accept me into his kingdom.Until then nothing about life feels okay. I really miss my mom.
On the 1st of July 2020, I watched my life take her last breath. My life was and in many ways still is about my mother. I have never felt more lost and empty than I do now since she left. Fast forward to the 4th of October and I attempted suicide. I was unsuccessful unfortunately. I still don't want to be here but I'm forcing myself to live because I mean I wake up everyday so clearly God isn't ready to accept me into his kingdom.Until then nothing about life feels okay. I really miss my mom. New to the Communitytag:www.onlinegriefsupport.com,2020-07-26:2054931:Topic:3389222020-07-26T06:19:53.482ZBrenda Annhttp://www.onlinegriefsupport.com/profile/BrendaAnn
<p>Hello everyone. I am new to this community. </p>
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<p>In May of 2018, I lost my Dad after a very brief illness. I loved my Dad but we were not real close. 18 months later in November of 2019, I lost my Mom. She and I were very close. She even lived with us after Dad passed away. I had a half brother who I did not see more than 10 times my whole life who passed away in 2000, so I am really an only child. I so miss my Momma very much. She was my rock. Even if I did not see her…</p>
<p>Hello everyone. I am new to this community. </p>
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<p>In May of 2018, I lost my Dad after a very brief illness. I loved my Dad but we were not real close. 18 months later in November of 2019, I lost my Mom. She and I were very close. She even lived with us after Dad passed away. I had a half brother who I did not see more than 10 times my whole life who passed away in 2000, so I am really an only child. I so miss my Momma very much. She was my rock. Even if I did not see her every day as an adult, we talked on the phone every single day. Not a day went by where I did not talk to her at least once in a day. My body hurts so bad missing her hugs. I know these feelings will get better but it is just so hard right now. It has only been 8 months but I still get mad at myself for still feeling this way.</p>
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<p>This group is definitely for me -- I really do miss my mom. Here is my story...</p>
<p>My mom was diagnosed with stage 4 pancreatic cancer on March 15th. She had been fighting nausea & weight loss for many months. She thought it was stress from caring for my dad, who was battling pneumonia. Then the vomiting started and she wasn't able to keep anything down. She had been to her family doctor, who put her on anti-nausea meds and told her to follow up in a couple weeks. She started…</p>
<p>This group is definitely for me -- I really do miss my mom. Here is my story...</p>
<p>My mom was diagnosed with stage 4 pancreatic cancer on March 15th. She had been fighting nausea & weight loss for many months. She thought it was stress from caring for my dad, who was battling pneumonia. Then the vomiting started and she wasn't able to keep anything down. She had been to her family doctor, who put her on anti-nausea meds and told her to follow up in a couple weeks. She started feeling week, so went in to the ER thinking she was dehydrated from the vomiting. One test led to another and they found her abdomen was "full of cancer". Diagnosed as pancreatic cancer, but tumors were throughout her organs - stomach, kidneys, liver, lungs and colon. She was given 2-4 months, treatment was not an option.</p>
<p>We brought her to my home directly from the hospital and started hospice. For about two and a half weeks she was her normal self (other than the nausea) and surrounded by family and friends. She was baking, hanging out at the bonfire with her grandsons, feeding the chickens, etc. It was hard to believe she was battling this disease.</p>
<p>Then she went downhill, fast. Less than a week later, on April 6th, she was gone. I am grateful that she had those good weeks to see and talked to her loved ones. She had no regrets.</p>
<p>I was primarily responsible for her care. Initially, it was no big deal. Giving her meds, keeping track of visitors, trying to get her to rest. But those last few days were terrible. It is hard to remember anything else. People keep telling me that the happy memories will replace those at some point.</p>
<p>I'm just really struggling. Any advice?</p> Never endingtag:www.onlinegriefsupport.com,2018-12-17:2054931:Topic:3297392018-12-17T06:13:43.503ZBrenda Annhttp://www.onlinegriefsupport.com/profile/BrendaAnn
The holidays are around the corner. On the 26th three years ago my mom slipped into a coma. I rushed to the hospital with her DNR only to be told I was tying the doctor hands. I would a murderer golddigging bitch. I stood by her wishes. I prayed over day and night. She woke up on new years and was told three days later they had to release her. She did qualify for hospice since she had more a year to live. On the third she was moved to a long term rehabilitation. On the 7 th i was told same…
The holidays are around the corner. On the 26th three years ago my mom slipped into a coma. I rushed to the hospital with her DNR only to be told I was tying the doctor hands. I would a murderer golddigging bitch. I stood by her wishes. I prayed over day and night. She woke up on new years and was told three days later they had to release her. She did qualify for hospice since she had more a year to live. On the third she was moved to a long term rehabilitation. On the 7 th i was told same about hospice. On the 8th I visited my mom. I made three promises. 1 she would die at home. 2 I would be there and not in the arms of strangers and final promise no one would pray over her. I got called shortly after midnight that she was passing. They lied to me they called me after her death. They more concerned about what funeral home to call. The last memory I have of my mom is seeing a body bag being zipped up. Lol was told that comforting. My mom was my only family, my only friend and now I have the guilt of her death and the knowledge I failed her. She died alone and scared. Anyone reading this please destroy the DNR it will bring you misery. If your love one is in the hospital find out their policy when they start to crash, will they respect family last wishes? As the holidays are closing hearing joyful Christmas music makes me realize what I did. I keep praying that my mom has forgiven and give me a sign. Nothing I feel so alone I just want the pain to end and know the meaning of a living hell. I miss my Momtag:www.onlinegriefsupport.com,2018-10-28:2054931:Topic:3278702018-10-28T15:54:32.373ZBrenda Annhttp://www.onlinegriefsupport.com/profile/BrendaAnn
<p>I can feel every word you write as it is the same here, and unfortunately i don't know how to recover from it. But if we can support other and volunteer in charity activity, it can have a positive effect on your life. but the gap in the heart will never be filled.</p>
<p>I can feel every word you write as it is the same here, and unfortunately i don't know how to recover from it. But if we can support other and volunteer in charity activity, it can have a positive effect on your life. but the gap in the heart will never be filled.</p> Does it ever end?tag:www.onlinegriefsupport.com,2018-10-22:2054931:Topic:3280372018-10-22T19:22:54.866ZBrenda Annhttp://www.onlinegriefsupport.com/profile/BrendaAnn
It been nearly three years since my mom died. I still cry every day. They say the pain will dull in time and for it increased as the days goes by. I can't help thinking if I had kept my mouth shut would she be alive today?.... Did me mentioniong the DNR kill her?<br />
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I feel my only happiness is when I die. I'm so tired of living. So tired of putting on a happy face.<br />
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The holidays for the most part are not bad. We only celebrate thanksgiving and I work all holidays. Lol my boss gave off…
It been nearly three years since my mom died. I still cry every day. They say the pain will dull in time and for it increased as the days goes by. I can't help thinking if I had kept my mouth shut would she be alive today?.... Did me mentioniong the DNR kill her?<br />
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I feel my only happiness is when I die. I'm so tired of living. So tired of putting on a happy face.<br />
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The holidays for the most part are not bad. We only celebrate thanksgiving and I work all holidays. Lol my boss gave off thanksgiving!<br />
I feel so tired,...so tired of the pain...there are days I skip meals ,....I just feel so alone. No one can relate. My mom was my only family and now I have nothing. I cared for her for many years and now I have nothing. I just wish I was dead! I miss my Mom too.tag:www.onlinegriefsupport.com,2018-07-25:2054931:Topic:3247952018-07-25T15:05:05.399ZBrenda Annhttp://www.onlinegriefsupport.com/profile/BrendaAnn
<p>I feel your pain. I lost my Mom in October 2017. Then...my cat of 18 years a couple months later. Then,...if that wasn't bad enough....my GF of 4 years broke up with me a month after that.</p>
<p>I feel your pain. I lost my Mom in October 2017. Then...my cat of 18 years a couple months later. Then,...if that wasn't bad enough....my GF of 4 years broke up with me a month after that.</p>