Don't grieve alone; 14,000 members and growing
It seems like this group is inactive given the last posts were about 4 years ago. I lost someone almost 2 years ago and I still feel the hurt as if it was the first day. Because of the nature of our relationship absolutely no one knows I'm grieving and I am completely alone. Over the course of the last couple years without him I've quit all my volunteer jobs, hobbies and pushed away everyone in my life. I have never been more alone and I just struggle with finding reasons to keep going every day. I have done little to no processing of my grief because I can't and by nature I just don't anyway.
Every day is pain and hurt and I just see very little reason for anything anymore. I miss him so much all the time. He's all I think about all day. Him and what a pathetic sack of shit I am for missing him so much after all this time. I hate myself for how much I hurt and I hate him for leaving and I hate the world for existing. I just hate everything.
I am so sorry for all that you are going through. I completely understand hating everyone, and everything, after a loss. I lost my favorite person in the world two weeks ago, today. That's why I am here. Grieving is a difficult thing to do. Just try to cope any way you know how.
I am not saying that I know exactly what you are going through, but I am here if you ever need to talk.
Thank you. I know all grief is valid but I just feel like mine is not and I deserve it.
Hi. I recently read your post and I feel like you and I may have a lot in common. I lost the man I loved on the first of the year. We also had an extremely complicated relationship that no one really knew about and it is so hard. I miss him so much. I know talking about it can help and if we can be there for each other I would like to be. I think we may understand each other's positions really well.
Thank you. I feel like I can never move past this because I can't grieve openly. Everyone around me is frustrated because they don't understand why I'm so depressed and I can't tell them so I've pulled away from everyone in my life. I just want the earth to swallow me up so i don't have to be here anymore
You're welcome. I have sent you a friend invite in case you wanted to message each other privately. I am finding some days are a little easier but then I turn around and without any reason find myself crying and missing my love. I hope that we can connect and support each other and grieve with each other during this difficult time in our lives.
I feel this group is not up dated but if you want to talk I can use some one too