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I have fought to keep what little there is left of my sanity. Annette being gone has caused profound pain mentally and physically. I know many here know what I'm talking about. I wake up and STILL expect to find her laying down in bed with me every morning.
I still keep having flashbacks of the good times and bad times. When we kissed, when we fought. It still feels like the first day.
I'll find peace when we're together. Until then, my life is nothing but just waiting to until with God's mercy my time will come soon and I can be at rest with Annette.
You have my sympathies over the loss of your beloved husband. I suppose each of us are stuck in certain situations are the same.
For me, with with no children, partially disabled with morbid obesity and a groin filled with so much lymphatic fluid I walk with what amounts to a small beach ball between my legs.
The solitude as I have mentioned in previous posts is literally taking its toll. I have micro-blackouts which means I faint for a second only to find out I've been unconscious for an hour or so.
This means cooking is out. I have no strength for shopping and I lay in bed in agony. Add the job I currently have and now soon will lose due to my inability of having a mix of pain and exhaustion walking a few feet at a time.
I'm going to lose my position as I was warned no "sleeping on the job". I was able to keep thus far thanks to a doctors note. But that won't last as I get worse and worse.
\I go this Tuesday for a medical assessment to determine if I am eligible for social security disability. It's the final portion after 6 months of hoping and waiting. If i don't get it, after fighting to hold on to my apartment, I will finally once and for all be homeless. Something I have tried avoiding since Annette died.
I continue to fight but every fight ends with someone winning or someone losing. My help is failing but if it's my fate to be homeless, I can at least know I fought as best I could.
I'm going to pray Tuesday goes well.
for me no had a bad few yrs thrt it wud be ok
bt ths yrs bean a bad 1
bean a vivtm of crim
moms alz/dem gets wors
i no i need 2 cry bt im wored if ido ill be cri till 2020
sorry if imsayin wong tthns or putin my foot in ti