I seem to have reached an impasse. I feel I cant go on. My partner was my life. I do feel guilty tho, I look around and see those who have bravely got on with their lives. I feel I can't, or even don't want to. Is this really bad/selfish? 

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Deborah, I know how you feel.The grieving can get so intense that I feel I can go on no more.I say to myself that is selfish.I don't believe it is. This the way we feel at the time and sometimes I'm afraid it won't go away, but it does.When my husband was alive we thanked the Lord for another day to be together.Now each day that goes by brings us closer to the day we will be together.I don't have all the answers but I am looking forward to the day I will see him again. Denise

The following link is information on grief.

I found it very comforting

http://wol.jw.org/en/wol/d/r1/lp-e/2016083

Dennis, Thank you for the link. I read all of it and appreciated the article.  My husband died April 4th of this year.I never realized how hard it is being here without him.I miss him so very much .Tomorrow my family and I are having a Memorial Service for my husband.I am anxious about it I want to celebrate his life with all his friends.How are you doing?We are here for each other. Thanks again Denise.

Denise,

I was thinking about you. I am sure that the memorial service was difficult (if not impossible) for you. I wish that I could do more to comfort everyone in their grief.

All I know to do is share what comforts me.

Another interesting article.

I find it comforting to know that God is NOT the reason that we die. In fact God will soon bring death to an end and reunite us with our loved ones

Why do People Die?

Hi Denise.  I just joined this forum, and this it the first comment I'm making.  I'm replying to your post because I'm curious how it went with the Memorial Service?  I lost my dear sweet kind beautiful beloved best friend, soulmate Dreamgirl and wife of almost 9 years on March 21.  Her going away party was on May 22.  I'd love to compare notes.

I feel this way on a daily basis. My life is very empty, hollow, sad and boring without my sister. She was my fun times and without her life is just Blah to the millionth degree. It is definitely not selfish to not want to carry on. People make you believe that you should be stronger than this, you should be strong enough to carry on and live your life, etc. But that is what THEY think. These people don't live inside you every day and know your suffering.

One of the worse things we can do is compare our strife to others, and I have done it too. I look at people who have lost more than me and they carry on and I have thought 'why can't I do it?'  but in reality we don't know who these people are really coping when we aren't around. They might smile and seem cheerful and that they are loving each day, but they may scream and cry at night.

It is an awful life to live each day in boring, lonely misery. I'm still trying to find my way.

I don't think you are selfish.  It is easier for some people to want to "get on with their lives".  Even if you are being selfish, so what? Your partner was taken from you; what better time to be selfish?

I will never "go on" with life, and I will never want to do so.

dont no 

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