I miss my mama, who died in June, in a big way, but what haunts me is her horrible illness, due to Parkinsons.  I am haunted that I couldn't help her in any way.  God knows I wanted to.  I cry for her death, but I really cry for the horror of her illness.  I am so devastated that I couldn't help her.

JW

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I think I understand. My mother died from lung cancer, she never smoked. She was only 56. The horror of her illness is forever gut wrenching to me.

Thank you for understanding.  Very sorry to hear what you went through with your mother!

so sorry jullie

my dad had copd but post mortm wz full of bull shit u cud say 3 difrtn reprts so on

it kils me his not hear any mre

iv lost a lot of faly 2 big c i hav i can not say it coz it mks me feal sic word it dose i feal bad coz i cud not stop thm geting it or any ilness i do

i lost my anti in july 2014 i feal s o bad coz  cud not vist her in her in hosptl but wn she wnt hom 2 die i got a a horbl shok 2 sea her on her death bed i did

wen dr cm 2 sea her he told her dorter l it cud be days or wks she died 2 days latr she had a stroke big c on top

her oldst dorter had a srroke wish has lft her veg btle so on i feal bad abot it voz im partly 3 blame for ti coz i did not get her meds 2 er strate away coz i  misset lst bus it wnt 2 her hme i did 

her sons cus not be bthrd 2 go get her meds iv saed sorry non stp coz of it i hpe 1 day thy can fogiv me i no i wil undstand if thy cant

sorry if im ranting 2 mush

Very sorry to hear about your experiences.  I wish you well and take good care of yourself.

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