The horror of a bad illness

I miss my mama, who died in June, in a big way, but what haunts me is her horrible illness, due to Parkinsons.  I am haunted that I couldn't help her in any way.  God knows I wanted to.  I cry for her death, but I really cry for the horror of her illness.  I am so devastated that I couldn't help her.

JW

Views: 145

▶ Reply to This

Replies to This Discussion

Permalink Reply by Casey on October 2, 2014 at 12:23am

I think I understand. My mother died from lung cancer, she never smoked. She was only 56. The horror of her illness is forever gut wrenching to me.

Permalink Reply by Julie W on October 5, 2014 at 11:03pm

Thank you for understanding.  Very sorry to hear what you went through with your mother!

Permalink Reply by dream moon JO B on October 5, 2014 at 4:49pm

so sorry jullie

my dad had copd but post mortm wz full of bull shit u cud say 3 difrtn reprts so on

it kils me his not hear any mre

iv lost a lot of faly 2 big c i hav i can not say it coz it mks me feal sic word it dose i feal bad coz i cud not stop thm geting it or any ilness i do

i lost my anti in july 2014 i feal s o bad coz  cud not vist her in her in hosptl but wn she wnt hom 2 die i got a a horbl shok 2 sea her on her death bed i did

wen dr cm 2 sea her he told her dorter l it cud be days or wks she died 2 days latr she had a stroke big c on top

her oldst dorter had a srroke wish has lft her veg btle so on i feal bad abot it voz im partly 3 blame for ti coz i did not get her meds 2 er strate away coz i  misset lst bus it wnt 2 her hme i did 

her sons cus not be bthrd 2 go get her meds iv saed sorry non stp coz of it i hpe 1 day thy can fogiv me i no i wil undstand if thy cant

sorry if im ranting 2 mush

Permalink Reply by Julie W on October 5, 2014 at 11:05pm

Very sorry to hear about your experiences.  I wish you well and take good care of yourself.

RSS

Groups

Latest Activity

dream moon JO B commented on Karen's group I miss my Mom!
"i miss mom so mush i do"
Apr 11
Susan E Marshall commented on Susan E Marshall's photo
Thumbnail

My husband

"Thanks, Rosie. (I have memory problems and forgot about this site. I'm just seeing this now. April 6th)"
Apr 6
Susan E Marshall and William Gardener are now friends
Apr 6
Natasha updated their profile
Apr 5
Angie Rowland joined Rita-Cecile's group
Thumbnail

LESBIAN ..GAY 2 SPIRITED loss and grief

Anyone who has lost their gay partner..soon finds that there may be a few things that are different...such as sorting through things and feeling like an intruder because it is also family stuff etcSee More
Apr 3
7 Comments
Speed Weasel posted a blog post

Assumptions

An assumption is an unexamined belief: what is thought to be true without ever really realizing that we think in that way. For better or worse, understanding starts with entertaining the idea that something is true.  Truly profound thoughts generally come to light from the relaxation of these (flawed) assumptions.  This is where I find myself today...Perhaps, one of the more significant drivers to pushing down the loss and grief at the time of the accident, ignoring it and mindlessly walking…See More
Mar 13
0 Comments
Profile IconCari Jo Converse, Jennifer and James D. Thornsberry joined Online Grief Support - A Social Community
Mar 13
Profile IconMarina Dsouza, Leah, Sandra M Aaron and 5 more joined Online Grief Support - A Social Community
Mar 5

© 2024   Created by Ninja.   Powered by

Badges  |  Report an Issue  |  Terms of Service