Hello,

 Just wanted to introduce myself to this exclusive club that none of us wants to belong to and yet, have to. My sons death was on April 5th. He chose suicide in the early morning hours. It's been nothing but a roller coaster of emotions every since.

My wife and I are really trying to get past this and I'll tell you, it's not easy! My heart goes out to all who have suffered the loss of a loved one because I know how it feels. Many times in our lives, we encounter loss. But sometimes a loss can seem so devastating that it's hard to even function.

 I went to the grocery store today and lost my shopping cart several times, and I mean lost all memory of where it was. I did keep finding it but then I'd lose it again, as my wife and I just kind of wandered around the store.

 Tomorrow being mothers day is going to be exceptionally hard on my wife. We've already had to face what would have been his 38th birthday in April 12th.  He lived with us which I guess makes this even harder. I haven't been able to even begin clearing out his room.

All I can say is that we're completely out of sorts but finding ways to get through. Anyway, I just wanted to introduce myself. I'll probably be journal-ling a lot on this site as writing is the main thing that helps me these days. Somehow when I write, I seem to connect with my soul and that gives me strength.

Anyways, good to meet you folks and understand that as I grieve for my loss I also grieve for others in the same position of loss.

May you find peace,

Chuck

 

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I am sorry for your loss. My dad took his own life almost 9 years ago this July and I am still not over the fact I found him. He had been dealing with depression for years and sadly it was not his first attempt although well his last cause he succeeded. I had tried for years to get him help. My heart goes out to you and your family and I am here if you ever need to talk

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