My husband died, and I will never want to live without him. - Online Grief Support - A Social Community2024-03-29T11:29:11Zhttp://www.onlinegriefsupport.com/forum/topics/my-husband-died-and-i-will-never-want-to-live-without-him?commentId=2054931%3AComment%3A441740&xg_source=activity&feed=yes&xn_auth=noSame here.tag:www.onlinegriefsupport.com,2023-01-08:2054931:Comment:4417402023-01-08T04:34:27.403Zbluebirdhttp://www.onlinegriefsupport.com/profile/Kristina68
<p>Same here.</p>
<p>Same here.</p> I can understand how that mak…tag:www.onlinegriefsupport.com,2023-01-08:2054931:Comment:4415592023-01-08T03:45:20.361ZDrewtoohttp://www.onlinegriefsupport.com/profile/LiviaBenedetto
<p>I can understand how that makes it even more difficult, having become a couple on that occasion.</p>
<p>I don't want to live without him, and I just don't feel that will ever change. So, it all seems so futile to go through this every day. </p>
<p>I can understand how that makes it even more difficult, having become a couple on that occasion.</p>
<p>I don't want to live without him, and I just don't feel that will ever change. So, it all seems so futile to go through this every day. </p> Thanks, Drewtoo. It sucks, a…tag:www.onlinegriefsupport.com,2023-01-08:2054931:Comment:4416502023-01-08T02:40:52.059Zbluebirdhttp://www.onlinegriefsupport.com/profile/Kristina68
<p>Thanks, Drewtoo. It sucks, and I'm sorry you are having to deal with it too. NYE is our anniversary (not our wedding anniversary, our "officially became a couple" anniversary), so it was always special to us. Since he died I just sit at home on NYE and wish he were alive or I were dead.</p>
<p>Thanks, Drewtoo. It sucks, and I'm sorry you are having to deal with it too. NYE is our anniversary (not our wedding anniversary, our "officially became a couple" anniversary), so it was always special to us. Since he died I just sit at home on NYE and wish he were alive or I were dead.</p> I'm so sorry, bluebird...this…tag:www.onlinegriefsupport.com,2023-01-08:2054931:Comment:4415582023-01-08T02:37:50.374ZDrewtoohttp://www.onlinegriefsupport.com/profile/LiviaBenedetto
<p>I'm so sorry, bluebird...this will be my first full year without mine and I am not looking forward to it either. I can only imagine how it must feel after several years.</p>
<p>I'm so sorry, bluebird...this will be my first full year without mine and I am not looking forward to it either. I can only imagine how it must feel after several years.</p> Another New Year's Eve spent…tag:www.onlinegriefsupport.com,2023-01-08:2054931:Comment:4416492023-01-08T01:10:05.846Zbluebirdhttp://www.onlinegriefsupport.com/profile/Kristina68
<p>Another New Year's Eve spent without my soulmate, and another new year that I do not want. </p>
<p>Another New Year's Eve spent without my soulmate, and another new year that I do not want. </p> I hold back from seeking deat…tag:www.onlinegriefsupport.com,2022-11-17:2054931:Comment:4403992022-11-17T19:55:45.630ZDrewtoohttp://www.onlinegriefsupport.com/profile/LiviaBenedetto
<p>I hold back from seeking death, as well...I still need to set an example for some people in my life. I also feel that maybe taking your own life might somehow then inhibit being able to connect with him, like maybe be in a different 'place'. Never really heard that, as I can recall, but just a feeling I have.</p>
<p>Jeff, I would really love to believe we reunite in a better world...my love heart needs to believe that (and it does), but my science mind needs some kind of reassurance. I'm not…</p>
<p>I hold back from seeking death, as well...I still need to set an example for some people in my life. I also feel that maybe taking your own life might somehow then inhibit being able to connect with him, like maybe be in a different 'place'. Never really heard that, as I can recall, but just a feeling I have.</p>
<p>Jeff, I would really love to believe we reunite in a better world...my love heart needs to believe that (and it does), but my science mind needs some kind of reassurance. I'm not going to say I need solid proof because that would be futile and also this is all sort of based on a belief system of the spiritual and the soul.</p>
<p>I do believe that I have had close relatives come to me...I felt them. But it was very few and only once or twice, then not again. I can not bear the thought of never seeing/feeling him again...if I were to come to know that would be true, I would find a way to die.</p>
<p>One of my favorite quotes, by Stephen Covey:</p>
<p>"We are not human beings on a spiritual journey; we are spiritual beings on a human journey."</p> My condolences to you as well…tag:www.onlinegriefsupport.com,2022-11-17:2054931:Comment:4404342022-11-17T06:57:49.423ZLuna Nightshadehttp://www.onlinegriefsupport.com/profile/LunaNightshade
<p>My condolences to you as well.</p>
<p>I remember that I have tried to reach out to him in lucid dreams, but I always woke before I succeeded.</p>
<p>I wish you the best of luck should you try.</p>
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<p>My condolences to you as well.</p>
<p>I remember that I have tried to reach out to him in lucid dreams, but I always woke before I succeeded.</p>
<p>I wish you the best of luck should you try.</p>
<p></p> Hi Luna,
I feel bad about you…tag:www.onlinegriefsupport.com,2022-11-17:2054931:Comment:4402752022-11-17T04:42:59.033ZJeff Chttp://www.onlinegriefsupport.com/profile/JeffC
<p>Hi Luna,</p>
<p>I feel bad about your anniversary. It really hit me hard to read your words about how you cried that hard. I can't come up with anything to say, but I get it.</p>
<p>I am at 6 1/2 years. 6 1/2 lost years. </p>
<p>Hi Luna,</p>
<p>I feel bad about your anniversary. It really hit me hard to read your words about how you cried that hard. I can't come up with anything to say, but I get it.</p>
<p>I am at 6 1/2 years. 6 1/2 lost years. </p> I am not Jeff, but I think I…tag:www.onlinegriefsupport.com,2022-11-17:2054931:Comment:4404332022-11-17T04:38:12.522ZLuna Nightshadehttp://www.onlinegriefsupport.com/profile/LunaNightshade
<p>I am not Jeff, but I think I can answer as well, since yes: Those were things I experienced.</p>
<p>I have cried so hard that I got sick and would almost vomit. I have thought of many things that would be so nice if they claimed my life at that moment.</p>
<p>I welcomed death, but it never came. I also didn't seek it out, there was still something holding me back, but the hope that something else would do the deed for me was always there.</p>
<p>I am not Jeff, but I think I can answer as well, since yes: Those were things I experienced.</p>
<p>I have cried so hard that I got sick and would almost vomit. I have thought of many things that would be so nice if they claimed my life at that moment.</p>
<p>I welcomed death, but it never came. I also didn't seek it out, there was still something holding me back, but the hope that something else would do the deed for me was always there.</p> Hi Drewtoo,
I am so sorry to…tag:www.onlinegriefsupport.com,2022-11-17:2054931:Comment:4402742022-11-17T04:36:56.945ZJeff Chttp://www.onlinegriefsupport.com/profile/JeffC
<p>Hi Drewtoo,</p>
<p>I am so sorry to hear that you are going through this. Yes, I went through all of those things and some of that is still there. This rocks your world in such a profound way. It would be a lie if I (or anyone) told you that they knew exactly what you are feeling because no one can. But I do have a general idea. </p>
<p>I read a while ago that grief is love turned inside out. The more you love someone, the harder it is. </p>
<p>That's interesting about that woman's…</p>
<p>Hi Drewtoo,</p>
<p>I am so sorry to hear that you are going through this. Yes, I went through all of those things and some of that is still there. This rocks your world in such a profound way. It would be a lie if I (or anyone) told you that they knew exactly what you are feeling because no one can. But I do have a general idea. </p>
<p>I read a while ago that grief is love turned inside out. The more you love someone, the harder it is. </p>
<p>That's interesting about that woman's lucid dreaming thoughts. What are your thoughts about the afterlife, and the concept that you both could be reunited in a much better world, and that this hell is really just a small moment in time (relatively)? </p>
<p>I feel for you.</p>
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