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Im sorry about your loss and its not good for the griefing process to have other stuff on your mind like "private investigators"
I know what you are going through. Believe in yourself. You can. I lost both my parents in my early 20’s (now im 28). I can say with confidence that i deal with it well now. I want to help people like us and maybe you feel like replying two simple questions. It might help you to gain some clarity. Excuse me if it's inappropriate, feel free to ignore. I am very curious to your answer though ^^
I wish you all the best on your journey in life.