on 3-21-08 my daughter was shot and killed. since then i have become the stereo type biker. no 1 used to mess with me or my family for fear of what i will do to them. after this i am openly hostile. i want to go to the execution to see his mom cry and follow them home and turn his family tree into a stick. i have become scarry to bikers i ride with. i really need help but i have noone to talk to. so it just builds. i frequently find myself flying into blind rages. i am dying inside i can feel it i do not care. as long as i see him die first ill be ok. see i need help badly. any takers i just need to vent. im not as crazy as i sound im a well thought of person by my peers. thats the worst part. and im not going to do anything im just hurt to my core.

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im sorry for your loss i know you are a better person than i am easily. if i had the kid that shot my daughter in reach i know exactly how he would meet god. id express his meeting date. gods proven hes turned on us all. i have always swallowed the bible bs but im over that now. reality says... ...its a new world kill or be killed. you dont want to shoot her huh? ok you want her hurt up i got female friends thatd be glad to hit her with pipes untill she ran to the police to confess. you know i just got a new job idea. confession extractors. well ok th name needs work but the idea has merrit

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I m so sorry for that your daughter killed. I know its the awful time for you. Its the horrible loss for you. You miss your daughter because you loved her. My friend also suffered from this situation and she also cry all the time.
I know its difficult to deal with this grief. You should go to grief counseling community. Its the best place to deal with your pain and grief. My condolences for you and my prayers always with you.

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My heart totally goes out for you and I feel so sorry for your daughter. its really a terrible loss and difficult to accept it. I know its tough time for you but you should go to grief counseling for relief your pain. Loss of a child is very painful for parents. My friend also lost her child last year and she was also very confused from it.
I pray to God for relief your pain. My prayers and condolences for you.
(((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))

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