I am losing what little sanity I have left. My body grows weaker each day while the fear of loneliness increases.

I just got food poisoning that I'm only now getting over but if I were to die, I would die alone. I don't want to be alone. Please God, I keep asking him to let me suffering end.

Not even an animal should be left to suffer as I do. I am going around in circles wondering where I will be in the coming months. SO I keep praying;

"Dear Lord, please end my suffering. My Love, please come for me and take me from this torment that is never ending. Please let this agony that is my life end quickly and with as little pain as possible. I beg you my love, don't leave  me behind.  I live with fear and terror every second of every day. And the suffering grows and grows. I am alone. I am in a prison with no hope.  Please God, I pray here today that you show mercy and allow me to be reunited with the only love. We only had each other in this world and shared our suffering when times were tough. I cannot do it alone. I cannot continue to suffer alone. SO I ask, Annette, hear me, and come for me. Don't leave me alone. I pray you've heard every word and will come for me my love.

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You never called me. I am also going through the hell. I cannot actually DO anything but you can call me any time. I had a horrible hail today that

I had a horrible hail today that destroyd my yard, my roof and damaged 2 vehicles. I spent 10 hrs without light and I was actually thinking about you as I wanted to call you but weather interrupted me. I was alone on the floor in a Texas heat and still was thinking about you, how you feel  when nobody is around...

Call me even if you want to say something silly.... Lord will end your suffering when He decides its your time. Meanwhile dont cry alone - talk to people...

It is so hard to move on!! It will be five years in august since I lost my husband. Loneliness plagues me daily. I totally feel your heartache

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