Today is Tuesday, September the 5th. My birthday is tomorrow, Wednesday the 6th. It is the first without my beloved wife. The agony and loneliness is too much to bear. I continue to decline in health and my pain knows no end. Please, honey come for me. I can't live the rest of what's left of my life like this...

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Im sorry your feeling so sad and down on life Richard ... is there anything I can do ... albeit all the way from NZ?!  I couldn't imagine going thru my grief alone so if you want to talk to someone I'm here. 

Richard, while I know you're grieving, I'd still like to wish you a Happy Birthday today. I hope you find some measure of happiness in life. God Bless.

Richard, Nothing can replace what your dearest Annette would do for your birthday so I wont pretend.   But I do hope that you can find a few moments to reflect on how her consistent love for you is still there  as is the love you had for her.

 I have to believe after four+ grueling years that my husband is still with me.  I just had a sign yesterday when I was in the deepest depths of a breakdown that was pretty significant.  The signs come way too far apart but yesterday gave me a renewed hope that their spirit is trying to help us withstand.  Try to open up that dimension that they must occupy with your mind so she can wish you some peace.  I send along my energy too.  

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🌹Richard. Its your birthday today. I know how you feel - my birthday was a month ago. I understand all your thoughts and feelings today. I know how badly you want Annette to be beside you right now but she cannot.

I looked at my birthday differently this time. I took photos of my parents and their parents, and their parents - everybody I had and still have. I felt as I belong to a huge family, I am not just somebody I am the result of life and love of so many generations. All those people are still alive as they live in me. I have no right to betray them and their love and beliefs. They were celebrating my birthday with me and I was celebrating their lives also. You belong to a family. You belong to a big group of people who are inside you, you carry on their legacy.

 🌹I am celebrating your life with you. Be strong. You are not alone - generations are standing behind you, your loved ones are on your side, and also we, people from the forum. are on your side, with you, celebrating your life. Accept the eternal love that is always with us and be thankful for what you have and had.

I want to thank everyone who has responded to my post. Even now as I write this I live load in the dark with no one to tell me that I am still a husband and that's all we had was each other I hope I pray that you come to me to take this burden From me. You are my heart and soul. I hope we'll be together soon.

I am sorry to hear this. But I wish you happy birthday and good wishes for you.

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