Feeling lost and broken - Online Grief Support - A Social Community2024-03-29T14:52:38Zhttp://www.onlinegriefsupport.com/forum/topics/feeling-lost-and-broken?groupUrl=forlovedoneswhohavelostsomeonetosuicide&commentId=2054931%3AComment%3A333999&groupId=2054931%3AGroup%3A12395&feed=yes&xn_auth=noHi Faith,
I've lost a few of…tag:www.onlinegriefsupport.com,2020-08-04:2054931:Comment:3389972020-08-04T11:46:00.509ZAlma Phttp://www.onlinegriefsupport.com/profile/AlmaPowell
<p>Hi Faith, </p>
<p>I've lost a few of dear people in my life. This recent one was in December 2019. He was a man that meant more to me than I could explain or predict. I would have let that guy marry me. He was one of my best friends. He took his own life last year. For a while, the guilt from not being a good enough friend to him ate at me. I kept replaying the previous year and every conversation we had. I searched for the moment, the opening, the one I missed. The one where I could have…</p>
<p>Hi Faith, </p>
<p>I've lost a few of dear people in my life. This recent one was in December 2019. He was a man that meant more to me than I could explain or predict. I would have let that guy marry me. He was one of my best friends. He took his own life last year. For a while, the guilt from not being a good enough friend to him ate at me. I kept replaying the previous year and every conversation we had. I searched for the moment, the opening, the one I missed. The one where I could have said something different or maybe done something different. Then there was the denial half of me unwilling to accept that he was gone. So one half was in denial which would sit and argue with my other half that felt the guilt which was trying to find where I messed up. Then I kept looking down at my phone, it was so silent. He wasn't texting everyday like he used to... he wasn't calling or leaving me sound snippets. The quiet was maddening. The separation was debilitating. The suddenness was shocking. I am still having issues with it. I am even having issues reconnecting to others, especially men. I joined this social community so I could have somewhere to let it out where people understand. I have a lot of people in my life that do not quite get it. They ask me to tell them about it and when I do... their replies tell me that they weren't going to be able to stay on my level long enough to reconnect me back here. So of course, I'm here in my grief... and it feels lonesome. </p>
<p>My condolences for the loss of your friend and also of your father. I too have lost my father, to cancer, years ago. I can't even imagine what its like to lose your father to suicide. I imagine that it is extremely haunting. </p>
<p>My heart goes out to you</p> Counseling is a good thing I…tag:www.onlinegriefsupport.com,2019-06-04:2054931:Comment:3338112019-06-04T05:00:02.883ZFaithhttp://www.onlinegriefsupport.com/profile/Faith786
Counseling is a good thing I have been in it since I was 10 when I had my first loss when I lost my mom. Not ashamed to admit I am now in my 30s and still in it to cope
Counseling is a good thing I have been in it since I was 10 when I had my first loss when I lost my mom. Not ashamed to admit I am now in my 30s and still in it to cope They all are in counseling nowtag:www.onlinegriefsupport.com,2019-06-04:2054931:Comment:3340012019-06-04T04:58:44.943ZAlice Bhttp://www.onlinegriefsupport.com/profile/ShariB
<p>They all are in counseling now</p>
<p>They all are in counseling now</p> I just don know how to stay s…tag:www.onlinegriefsupport.com,2019-06-04:2054931:Comment:3338102019-06-04T04:58:15.148ZAlice Bhttp://www.onlinegriefsupport.com/profile/ShariB
<p>I just don know how to stay strong for them, I have to learn things I’ve never have before....it’s very overwhelming </p>
<p>I just don know how to stay strong for them, I have to learn things I’ve never have before....it’s very overwhelming </p> I was going to ask how your k…tag:www.onlinegriefsupport.com,2019-06-04:2054931:Comment:3338832019-06-04T04:54:44.207ZFaithhttp://www.onlinegriefsupport.com/profile/Faith786
I was going to ask how your kids are doing. I know I was not a kid when I lost him I was in my early 20’s but it traumatized me. Especially finding him and no matter how old I was or am now it’s like I feel orphaned. I lost my mom when I was a kid (10) so I have no parents or even grandparents now. I just keep thinking why dad why did you leave me alone like you did and then I still cry about it. Your a good mom to make sure your kids are ok I wish I still had my mom to do that with
I was going to ask how your kids are doing. I know I was not a kid when I lost him I was in my early 20’s but it traumatized me. Especially finding him and no matter how old I was or am now it’s like I feel orphaned. I lost my mom when I was a kid (10) so I have no parents or even grandparents now. I just keep thinking why dad why did you leave me alone like you did and then I still cry about it. Your a good mom to make sure your kids are ok I wish I still had my mom to do that with Don’t they know what they lea…tag:www.onlinegriefsupport.com,2019-06-04:2054931:Comment:3337052019-06-04T04:50:24.717ZAlice Bhttp://www.onlinegriefsupport.com/profile/ShariB
<p>Don’t they know what they leave behind,it’s awlful, I have to make sure my kids are ok, I have to be strong, it just really sucks</p>
<p>Don’t they know what they leave behind,it’s awlful, I have to make sure my kids are ok, I have to be strong, it just really sucks</p> You no my dad tried 4 times b…tag:www.onlinegriefsupport.com,2019-06-04:2054931:Comment:3338822019-06-04T04:46:39.931ZFaithhttp://www.onlinegriefsupport.com/profile/Faith786
You no my dad tried 4 times before he actually succeeded so I never really thought he would do it either not successful yet all the other times he attempted he showed it and I was able to get him help. This last time he didn’t e en show he was depressed. The night before we where planning on what we where doing the following weekend no hint of depression that time so I was shocked
You no my dad tried 4 times before he actually succeeded so I never really thought he would do it either not successful yet all the other times he attempted he showed it and I was able to get him help. This last time he didn’t e en show he was depressed. The night before we where planning on what we where doing the following weekend no hint of depression that time so I was shocked It’s just so messed up
tag:www.onlinegriefsupport.com,2019-06-04:2054931:Comment:3340002019-06-04T04:43:40.869ZAlice Bhttp://www.onlinegriefsupport.com/profile/ShariB
<p>It’s just so messed up</p>
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<p>It’s just so messed up</p>
<p></p> I always thought just never r…tag:www.onlinegriefsupport.com,2019-06-04:2054931:Comment:3339992019-06-04T04:43:08.320ZAlice Bhttp://www.onlinegriefsupport.com/profile/ShariB
<p>I always thought just never really thought he would </p>
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<p>I always thought just never really thought he would </p>
<p></p> Still though you did not make…tag:www.onlinegriefsupport.com,2019-06-04:2054931:Comment:3338812019-06-04T04:41:51.018ZFaithhttp://www.onlinegriefsupport.com/profile/Faith786
Still though you did not make him do what he did just like I didn’t make my dad so what he did. But I still blame my self about my dad as well like what I could of done different yet I had no idea he was going to do what he did
Still though you did not make him do what he did just like I didn’t make my dad so what he did. But I still blame my self about my dad as well like what I could of done different yet I had no idea he was going to do what he did