I would love to just check out of Christmas this year and check back in sometime in 2017... I've prepared myself to just numb myself this weekend if need be but I sure would love a forward button instead. Dear Santa?!?!?

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I know how you feel. I'm not sure what to say other than take care of yourself. We are still here for a purpose. My brother passed Dec 16 then one year later his 28 year old son killed himself on Dec 12th. Four years ago I was taking care of my mother during this time and  I lost her on Feb 8th. So holidays are not my favorite time of the year. We all used to get together on Christmas eve. Now the very few of us left just don't anymore. Watching movies helps somewhat.

I cooked and just pushed through it... my son made it special for me. He has really been my rock through this. Just ready to get out of 2016!!!

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I hope you find some peace through all of it.
How are you doing Kimberly? Did it go any easier for you that you thought?
It was tough but I made it through better than I expected...my son has been such a support through all of this.. thank you for checking on me... how are you honey?
That's what I do..I just "get through" all special occasions. I spend them alone. When my son died all of my close friends abandoned me. I hate them for it

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