It's almost 3 months since I lost my Mom. I 've been through a lot.  I keep thinking i should be better now. There's no one there saying if you need anything let me know etc. So it gives my the feeling i should be able to handle this now. I've had times when I did feel better. Like I can handle this. But then I get overwhelmed and have no one to turn to. Family I thought would be there to lean on aren't there. I have no one else. On top of that I have all of these financial things to deal with. I have all of these new responsibilities and I get so forgetful sometimes I forget what I was supposed to do and names or that I even made an appointment. Then I feel like people will get mad at me for not keeping up with things. But I honestly can't remember and am foggy a lot of the time. I also feel like I should be over that. I have a chronic illness which makes everything harder.Just feeling so bad for failing. But I'm doing so much. I miss my Mom so much. She was my best friend. My support.

I miss my Mom so much. She was my best friend. My support.

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I am also at the same time frame and feeling exactly the same as you. I cant offer any advice but can tell you that you  explained  my life and feelings to a T. So I guess this is the new normal for people like us. Hang in there you are not alone. One day at a time. Good luck friend.

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